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i am so overly concerned with money, when i really have no reason to be. at least not in september. i realize getting a job would actually make all of those feelings go away but frankly i am too lazy and honestly who really cares about debt because the entire country is in debt. but i have been taught better by my parents. i could say i'm lucky. i hate everything about college. i hate the waiting and organizing of people to get someplace there might be beer. i hate chanting in the hall and sex everynight with a different person. observing all of this two years after going through it is awful. but i transfered for a reason, and not yet have i felt the same way i felt there. i'm dropping out because i just want to go to alaska and seattle. i do not need a college degree hah, nor do i really have the desire to get one. as if all this would go over well with mom and dad. i'm not paying. you're going to come, and then you're going to leave. if things could just work in strange ways and somehow i could be okay with everything the way it is that would be great. but still superstitious im going to jinxx everything. at least it's pretty on top of the parking garage at seven pm. and at least there is plenty of lightning.