girl, don't be sad.
I'm tired of feeling sad. I mean, it doesn't happen on a regular basis, but- when these overwhelming feelings of sadness come along...I want to do anything to rid myself of them. I wish I could explain myself better, but I feel like it's a mild case of "bi-polar disorder", induced at complete random... as if I am not myself anymore. Just down. Sad. And remorseful about things that I understand I cannot control. Knowing that there is nothing to do about the things that bring me down, don't you think I'd be smart enough to not let them get to me? Hm. It's late. I'm tired. I just wanna get past this. And I know that it will phase out, and I'll laugh and appreciate everything that life throws at me tomorrow, but right now, tonight, I just feel like a candle at the end of it's wick, flickering to stay lit, but failing. And yes, I've been drinking.