I'm not in a "LOVE" kinda place.
So I wanna start writing in here more often. Man, Life has been nuts the past little while. I mean, what the fuck does love do to people?? Seriously. I became zombie-fied, entranced, and lost in someone else. No thank you. Thats not something I'm looking forward to falling into again. I'd rather get out of bed alone, every morning, and step into a steaming pile of shit. Thats right. I'd rather step in hot poo poo first thing every day of my life vs. becoming engulfed in love with someone else, and losing MYSELF.
Don't mistake this entry to say "GOD, I hate love!"...or - that I don't believe in love... or saying "I'll never find it again" because I will. And I will be happy in love with someone else one day. But I'm just so cold to it currently. Any possibility of someone caring about me. or caring about someone else, I find myself in the middle of a frigid forcefield that cannot be penetrated. It's like I choose not to get close to people, or let people too close to me.
Eh. ooh wells.
I slept so well last night. MMM. 9 hours. yummy.
I wanna get my hair cut today. AND I need to figure out what we're doing with ALI's 21 b day!!!!!!!!!
EEEEEEEEEEkkkk.
Btw, shout out to all the people in my life that are always there for me. You know who you are.
I wouldn't be able to get by without yall.
Don't mistake this entry to say "GOD, I hate love!"...or - that I don't believe in love... or saying "I'll never find it again" because I will. And I will be happy in love with someone else one day. But I'm just so cold to it currently. Any possibility of someone caring about me. or caring about someone else, I find myself in the middle of a frigid forcefield that cannot be penetrated. It's like I choose not to get close to people, or let people too close to me.
Eh. ooh wells.
I slept so well last night. MMM. 9 hours. yummy.
I wanna get my hair cut today. AND I need to figure out what we're doing with ALI's 21 b day!!!!!!!!!
EEEEEEEEEEkkkk.
Btw, shout out to all the people in my life that are always there for me. You know who you are.
I wouldn't be able to get by without yall.