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these are all super old. I just went through my photobucket completely randomly and picked some so that maybe you would be interested. the weather is amazing and all the windows are opened in my house, with this wonderful breeze blowing through. I just took a shower and watched a part of a movie with my sister but she had to go to bed. these things are amazing because I rarely rarely rarely ever get to do them. and with the weather being so amazing, I'm just really thankful. whenever I do stuff like this I always feel like I'm wasting my time-I feel that I could always be doing something more productive. spending more time with God, reading a book, doing laundry. it's all just guilt. I look around and see my friends and adults that I truly look up to relaxing infront of the tv or...I don't know. so sometimes I force myself to do those things, even if I feel guilty. but why on earth do I feel guilty? what if my Father has something to say to me? I'm not showing Him interest. I'm not putting in an effort. man, just let me chill out. all I'm asking for is some peace of mind. because until I get that, I won't have rest. but look at me-acting like I know what I need. I did play softball today, and my whole arm and shoulder are terribly sore, but I really miss that old game.