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Nothing's going to last. Me being here.. isn't going to last.. Field Hockey, my relationships, my friendships.. It's all going to end..I honestly can't take me anymore. I can't my fucking life and I can't take that I can never feel anything right.
I fucking HATE it all. GAH I fucking want to die so badly right now. Bobbie knows how pathetic I am now. She won't want to love me much longer.. I can't take this shit anymore.. She never wants to spend time with me.. I hate it..
I want to cut but I promised I wouldn't so I'm crying like a fucking dumbass. I miss my Grandma so fucking much right now. I hate that she had to die. I wish it was me instead of her thatg way everyone would be happy and people wouldn't be fighting all the time. Kuz no one would notice that I would be gone because no one would give a fuck.. So why not just do it now?
I fucking HATE it all. GAH I fucking want to die so badly right now. Bobbie knows how pathetic I am now. She won't want to love me much longer.. I can't take this shit anymore.. She never wants to spend time with me.. I hate it..
I want to cut but I promised I wouldn't so I'm crying like a fucking dumbass. I miss my Grandma so fucking much right now. I hate that she had to die. I wish it was me instead of her thatg way everyone would be happy and people wouldn't be fighting all the time. Kuz no one would notice that I would be gone because no one would give a fuck.. So why not just do it now?