I may be meeting mr.devil soon :)
I hurt. Badly. But, I dont decide to not show it. I show it. Alot. I could really care less about everyone I know right now. Never ever have my thoughts on death ever been this strong. I have someone stealing my life away from me. I found out someone, I love alot, ILOVESOFUCKINGMUCH. Has a girlfriend. I've ditched so many fucking people for him. Just to spend msn time with him. No, This is NOT Larry, By the way :). I've spent nights after nights having tea parties with him. I dont understand WHY, I , me, Must get fucked over EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME. I know, People at school are pissing me off too. I honesly Dont care about any of my "friends". ANY of them. I don't feel like going to school tomorrow. And getting asked out by Nick. I dont want anyone right now. I just want to lay down. Think.Cry. And do something else. I feel really bad. because I'm changing again. I dont want to. I hate it when people tell me i'm so fucking pretty. What they see may be a pretty face to them. But. I'm one fucking horrible person. Don't ever hang around me. I'll fuck your life up. I wanted to MARRY him. People my age are supposed to eb thinking about BOYFRIENDS... not getting married. I dont know. I'll end up with another broken heart. Anyone wanna heal me this time?