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so here is my cameron entry. it will be the only one from this point on. it might get sappy and it might get stupid. but you dont have to read it. so yeah...
i remember the 1st time we kissed in the back of ronnie's car. we spent the whole day flirting and being stupid. we were "going to cowboys" but went to mellow mushroom instead. it was fun.
i remember the 1st time that he said that he loved me. i thought i was going to melt out of the seat onto the floor. i thought it was perfect.
i remember when he told me that he wanted to marry me. i thought he was kidding but then we were at his house and he kissed me and told me that he swore to me on us that he wanted to marry me.
i remember the night we spent together at his moms. well, not all night, only until about 2:00. but still. we just cuddled and watched Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas and made out. it was amazing.
i remember when we went to the zoo. it was amazing.
i remember when we went to publix to get my bubblegum machine ring because we were going to get married.
i remember how he would hold me tight and kiss me on my shoulders and tell me that he loved me.
i remember the time in milton's parking lot. and the pool. and behind his house. and in the room [on my bed & his]. and in the car. and in the treefort in my neighborhood. and everywhere else.
i remember the way that he would tickle his hand across my stomache and wouldnt stop until i was close to tears from laughing so hard.
i remember how when he would go to kiss me i would stick out my tonge and he would kiss that instead. and we would both crack up.
i remember one time i read this thing about tantric breathing making you feel closer to your lover, and he tried it with me.
i remember how safe and secure i would feel with him next to me.
but most of all i remember how i love him without any question as to if it was right or if it was good for me. i love him with all my heart. its so hard for me to let go. i know i need to, but i don`t want to. maybe things will go back to normal. but i dont know if i should. well, i know i shouldnt. but i want to. i love him. with everything i have and i feel empty without him. but its ok. i`ll be alright.
♥ steph
i remember the 1st time we kissed in the back of ronnie's car. we spent the whole day flirting and being stupid. we were "going to cowboys" but went to mellow mushroom instead. it was fun.
i remember the 1st time that he said that he loved me. i thought i was going to melt out of the seat onto the floor. i thought it was perfect.
i remember when he told me that he wanted to marry me. i thought he was kidding but then we were at his house and he kissed me and told me that he swore to me on us that he wanted to marry me.
i remember the night we spent together at his moms. well, not all night, only until about 2:00. but still. we just cuddled and watched Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas and made out. it was amazing.
i remember when we went to the zoo. it was amazing.
i remember when we went to publix to get my bubblegum machine ring because we were going to get married.
i remember how he would hold me tight and kiss me on my shoulders and tell me that he loved me.
i remember the time in milton's parking lot. and the pool. and behind his house. and in the room [on my bed & his]. and in the car. and in the treefort in my neighborhood. and everywhere else.
i remember the way that he would tickle his hand across my stomache and wouldnt stop until i was close to tears from laughing so hard.
i remember how when he would go to kiss me i would stick out my tonge and he would kiss that instead. and we would both crack up.
i remember one time i read this thing about tantric breathing making you feel closer to your lover, and he tried it with me.
i remember how safe and secure i would feel with him next to me.
but most of all i remember how i love him without any question as to if it was right or if it was good for me. i love him with all my heart. its so hard for me to let go. i know i need to, but i don`t want to. maybe things will go back to normal. but i dont know if i should. well, i know i shouldnt. but i want to. i love him. with everything i have and i feel empty without him. but its ok. i`ll be alright.
♥ steph