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Dec 23, 2005 18:56

Lately, I haven't had much to say, and I guess I still don't. Some unknown force is pulling me to livejournal, on Christmas Eve's eve. And I'm pretty much speechless. Nothing good has happened to me: No special calls or messages. Nothing terrible has happened, though, in retrospect, and for that I guess I can be greatful. Life this break has been simply sleeping till two in the afternoon (something that's gonna hit me hard on Jan. 3) and just sitting around on the computer till about 12, then I call Sean and we talk till about 2 and I go back to sleep and the cycle continues. Plans for my sweet sixteen are underway, I'm rendering addresses, we're making the invitations. I got a date for Monday, the 26th to get professional photos taken of me, and Tuesday, the next day, we're paying the balance of the hall and figuring out how we're gonna decorate. Thursday evening I go to David's Bridal, to get the dress altered and steam ironed, and then it's back to school a few days later. And then... well then it's just a few weeks till the party. Then what will occupy my life? The ever-present lack of friends and things to do. I guess softball will pick up, and that makes me kind of happy. Our first tournament game is on Jan. 2.. Woo hoo.
My lack of enthusiasm in life is a little scary. Today, I was watching the news, and a guy in.. fuck, what was the country? See? Well, I forgot his country, but anyway, he lost his parents, wife, and 2 daugters in the tsunami. He's been living in a tent for a year and all he wants is to walk around all day, looking for scraps of other peoples homes so he can build himself a new house. He's trying to not think about his family gone. Tony Dungy's kid died, too. Last night, me, Adam and Mom had a whole discussion on how trashed we would be if we lost one of us. I mean, they're all I have. If I lost either one of them, no matter how much I bitch, I'd be.... I can't even begin to think of it.
I'd be a lost cause.

I don't feel like typing anymore.
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