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so this weekend officially blew.. except friday.
hahaha i loveddd Friiday.
till the pigs ruined my night
but i think i just need to change everything im doing or im just going to get no where. i just hate my family so much i dont knoww what i can do anymore.. they don't help me at all they just ignore all my problems and i think im finally realizing all these problems and theyre never there to help. i have no one to talk to about anything.. and sometimes its good to have someone but i dont even knoww. i just want to be 18 and out of here for good. it sucks waiting for nothing. 2 more years seems like an eternity & i dont know what i am going to do.. honestly. summers in 10 days... for some reason im not even excited & i dont knoww why maybe its the fact that my life is just going to keep going downn.. 6 months ago everyone told me it will get worse before it got better.. and it did get worse BUT WHEN THE FUCK IS IT GOING TO GET Betterr it just keeps getting worse. i hate crying everyday & never being happy. i hate howw that feels but i guess all i can do is wait and wait and wait. maybe i do need to move away from schaumburg or changee. i just dont know how im going to do thatt noww.
"sometimes the hardest thing & the right thing are the same"
hahaha i loveddd Friiday.
till the pigs ruined my night
but i think i just need to change everything im doing or im just going to get no where. i just hate my family so much i dont knoww what i can do anymore.. they don't help me at all they just ignore all my problems and i think im finally realizing all these problems and theyre never there to help. i have no one to talk to about anything.. and sometimes its good to have someone but i dont even knoww. i just want to be 18 and out of here for good. it sucks waiting for nothing. 2 more years seems like an eternity & i dont know what i am going to do.. honestly. summers in 10 days... for some reason im not even excited & i dont knoww why maybe its the fact that my life is just going to keep going downn.. 6 months ago everyone told me it will get worse before it got better.. and it did get worse BUT WHEN THE FUCK IS IT GOING TO GET Betterr it just keeps getting worse. i hate crying everyday & never being happy. i hate howw that feels but i guess all i can do is wait and wait and wait. maybe i do need to move away from schaumburg or changee. i just dont know how im going to do thatt noww.
"sometimes the hardest thing & the right thing are the same"