...paths....
I drive myself crazy.
it wasn't as bad-
before I live here.
before he told me where he lives.
before he told me where he works.
before I knew he was as amazing as I thought.
I went to work today. store #37.
I rode the bus. departed at pike and 2nd. walked to the store.
since I was quite early due to the bus schedule. I decided to go to the starbucks across the street.
as I sat down with my beverage...I looked out the window.
and was looking at his building.
it didn't even occur to me that that's where I was.
I stared up at the hundreds of windows.
wondering.
what was he doing right now.
what was he thinking.
....am I ever involved in those thoughts?
you know.
as big as seattle is.
it's really small.
same with the world really.
but anyways.
you know...how many times our paths have crossed?
I wouldn't even have a guess.
being that we live like 10 minutes from each other...
you know?
rockstar crushes aren't suposta be real.
the rockstars are suposta live accross the country.
....or at least in cali...eh jen? mwahaha.
[assuming that's where jared leto lives]
....but when they're real....
...and your friends have his phone number....
[and you do too, but you won't admit it]
......it just screws everything up....
it messes with your head.
are you suposta sit back and admire from afar like you would your typical rockstar crush?
or are you suposta do something about it?
do you have a chance in this world with this guy?
how would you know if you did or didn't.
I mean i have a rockstar crush. and that's all it is.
he's a cool guy. he's pretty. he's kind. he's amazing in his leiterhozen.
but that's all it is.
with this other rockstar crush.
he's diffferent.
he's not the most physically attractive guy I've ever met.....yet.....he is the most gorgeous guy I know.
I'm generally attracted to the dark haired. dark eyed. pierced. tattoed. skinny. emo haired children.
he's none of those.
....but that's ok....
...[questionmark.]...
I'd not gotten butterflies as bad in a long time as I did when we were chatting a couple weeks ago.
I mean I had to look away and focus on spewing said butterflys everywhere for a second.
anyway.
I don't think he's interested.
I"m signifigantly younger.
and when I say signifigantly i mean like 12 years. =S.
and he has my number.
if he was indeed interested I think he'd give me a call.
*sigh*
good night.