I caved.
I had enough of pretending I was normal and choking down the irritability, so I hit the bottle last night. The Topamax bottle. If I've learned anything in the recent months, it would be, "why suffer when you don't have to?".
Topamax is some potent shit. I took 50mg and slept so dreamily and deliciously the alarm clock sounded apologetic when it went off this morning.
The downside? (Yes, there is a downside to not having mood swings and sleeping so fabulously). I now have Dopamax brain. It took me forever to get the copy machine to cooperate this morning. I wound up with 100 blank pages of one thing, and 75 of another at a 50% reduction. And I am no tech tard. I have firm, undisputed standing as the department alpha geek. I'm blaming it on the Dopamax.
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Favorite Coworker just came in and we were talking about the Florida trip. He's got a shark story that beats mine. When he was a kid, splashing merrily about in the Atlantic just off Hollywood Florida, a big wave came towards him, and in the wave was a hammerhead shark.
Holy freakin cow.
Imagine that. You're standing there, minding your own business, and the ocean has the nerve to toss a freakin' shark at your head. The ocean has a strange sense of humor.
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I got a call back from skewl in re: trying to get accepted for the third time, which is a charm you know. I have to take four, count them, FOUR classes to get the extra 2-point boost that would put me in the "definitely, totally, fer sure in" category. Luckily, I can take them all online. One of them is a Imaging class (MRI, CAT scan, Xray, etc), which should be cake, because where did I work before here? Radiology. I would have stayed there, if not for the fabulous pay raise that came with accepting this position.
Four and a half years I've been in this position now....this was supposed to be a stepping stone to bigger and better things. And it was, I suppose. Just not in the way I intended.
Topamax is some potent shit. I took 50mg and slept so dreamily and deliciously the alarm clock sounded apologetic when it went off this morning.
The downside? (Yes, there is a downside to not having mood swings and sleeping so fabulously). I now have Dopamax brain. It took me forever to get the copy machine to cooperate this morning. I wound up with 100 blank pages of one thing, and 75 of another at a 50% reduction. And I am no tech tard. I have firm, undisputed standing as the department alpha geek. I'm blaming it on the Dopamax.
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Favorite Coworker just came in and we were talking about the Florida trip. He's got a shark story that beats mine. When he was a kid, splashing merrily about in the Atlantic just off Hollywood Florida, a big wave came towards him, and in the wave was a hammerhead shark.
Holy freakin cow.
Imagine that. You're standing there, minding your own business, and the ocean has the nerve to toss a freakin' shark at your head. The ocean has a strange sense of humor.
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I got a call back from skewl in re: trying to get accepted for the third time, which is a charm you know. I have to take four, count them, FOUR classes to get the extra 2-point boost that would put me in the "definitely, totally, fer sure in" category. Luckily, I can take them all online. One of them is a Imaging class (MRI, CAT scan, Xray, etc), which should be cake, because where did I work before here? Radiology. I would have stayed there, if not for the fabulous pay raise that came with accepting this position.
Four and a half years I've been in this position now....this was supposed to be a stepping stone to bigger and better things. And it was, I suppose. Just not in the way I intended.