"i left a trail, but no one missed me"
see, it's one thing to be ditched by friends - it's expected. but it's another thing entirly when it's your family - the one's who taught you the value of spending quality time together. yeah, they just took off. i saw them leave and it sucks because i woke up feeling really empty. but i should be used to it. they go out every saturday morning to phil's without me. not the greatest way to wake up.
the past two nights have been going so well. ananda and ainsely did awesome jobs as the murderer. i want to be it tonight. marty said it was cool to see how the play changed from night to night. it's not bad at all once hell week is over. went to mini's after school to do the phone interview with moments in grace, but beau wouldn't let me in the room, so i just stood in the doorway and gave silent support. it went ok. it'll get easier as time goes on. we're going to send them socks. apparently they need them.
i feel completely indifferent. i'm miserable and content at the same time. how does that work? i'm getting to spend more time with my friends, which is great, but i'm also starting to see couples everywhere. i knew they were there before, but now it's like they're so much more apparent. i can't stand love songs anymore. they were playing the moulin rouge soundtrack last night and i had to get out. so i went and sat in my car with martha (whom i love dearly) and listened to the radio. i want to get out of here and go away. i really need that right now. i'll be saying that until i actually get away. and for some reason i don't think it'll happen...
forgive the pessimism.
the past two nights have been going so well. ananda and ainsely did awesome jobs as the murderer. i want to be it tonight. marty said it was cool to see how the play changed from night to night. it's not bad at all once hell week is over. went to mini's after school to do the phone interview with moments in grace, but beau wouldn't let me in the room, so i just stood in the doorway and gave silent support. it went ok. it'll get easier as time goes on. we're going to send them socks. apparently they need them.
i feel completely indifferent. i'm miserable and content at the same time. how does that work? i'm getting to spend more time with my friends, which is great, but i'm also starting to see couples everywhere. i knew they were there before, but now it's like they're so much more apparent. i can't stand love songs anymore. they were playing the moulin rouge soundtrack last night and i had to get out. so i went and sat in my car with martha (whom i love dearly) and listened to the radio. i want to get out of here and go away. i really need that right now. i'll be saying that until i actually get away. and for some reason i don't think it'll happen...
forgive the pessimism.