In Dreams Of Small Things
"Everything Is Illuminated By the Light Of the Past."
-Jonathan Safran Foer
I really believe in this. its incredible how true it rings to me. looking back things make so much more sense...or you realize that the shit you spent most of your time worrying about didnt matter to begin with. but its ok, because its passed. the only trouble i have with putting this into my everyday thought process is that i cant let things go. i would like to be able to just let things go and return to see how they ended up later. but its too hard for me to do.
time really flies by. i know ive said this before, but im almost 20 years old. im only a few years away from being older than college football players. when i put it in that context, it makes me feel too old. it makes me feel like i am an old man and i have nothing to look forward to. but its not true. i have everything to look forward to. i have my whole life to look forward to. i have a possible marriage and children to look forward to. i have so much to look forward to, i just need to make it happen. less time needs to be wasted on useless things, unless these useless things bring me happiness. happiness needs to be put on the fast track to number 1 in my life. too many people spend their whole lives being depressed or unsatisfied with how theyve lived. im not going to be them.
on a sort of related, but not really related topic- is it just me or do children seem to be getting smaller and smaller? i mean, given im taller than most people are, but when i was in the seventh grade, i dont remember being as damned small as the seventh graders nowadays. theyre like 3 feet tall. seriously. its ridiculous. even the freshman now are ridiculously small. is it that the gene pools are deciding to stick with smaller framed people or am i just freakishly large? theres something to ponder.
scarf and sweater weather is dawning. embrace it.
-Jonathan Safran Foer
I really believe in this. its incredible how true it rings to me. looking back things make so much more sense...or you realize that the shit you spent most of your time worrying about didnt matter to begin with. but its ok, because its passed. the only trouble i have with putting this into my everyday thought process is that i cant let things go. i would like to be able to just let things go and return to see how they ended up later. but its too hard for me to do.
time really flies by. i know ive said this before, but im almost 20 years old. im only a few years away from being older than college football players. when i put it in that context, it makes me feel too old. it makes me feel like i am an old man and i have nothing to look forward to. but its not true. i have everything to look forward to. i have my whole life to look forward to. i have a possible marriage and children to look forward to. i have so much to look forward to, i just need to make it happen. less time needs to be wasted on useless things, unless these useless things bring me happiness. happiness needs to be put on the fast track to number 1 in my life. too many people spend their whole lives being depressed or unsatisfied with how theyve lived. im not going to be them.
on a sort of related, but not really related topic- is it just me or do children seem to be getting smaller and smaller? i mean, given im taller than most people are, but when i was in the seventh grade, i dont remember being as damned small as the seventh graders nowadays. theyre like 3 feet tall. seriously. its ridiculous. even the freshman now are ridiculously small. is it that the gene pools are deciding to stick with smaller framed people or am i just freakishly large? theres something to ponder.
scarf and sweater weather is dawning. embrace it.