20 days until bikini time
bored.
& lonely.
& empty.
new layout though.
i had the other one for just too long.
i'm occupying myself with this.
i bought it yesterday to keep me motivated/not bored. even though i shouldn't be spending what little money i have. i'm totally broke lately (cigarettes&marijuana). it sucks. i should get a job but i lack enough confidence to even HAND OUT my resume.
my mind is just all cluttered & my emotions are like a rollercoaster.
i wish i didn't still get my stupid period.
& i'm trying to think of something super-sweet to do for my ♥boyfriend tomorrow.
but, i'm totally lost. (nothing new)
i want to do something really special for him.
but i suck.
he has been there for me through through thick and thin & means the world to me.
sorry, getting all musshy up in here.
P.S - thank you all for your comments on my pics. I LOVE YOU GUYS!
you were all so sweet♥
P.P.S - i'm going to be in myrtle beach in 20 days. that means bikini time. i need motivation to loose. i'm scared. i'm scared to look at my body in the mirror, in fear i won't see the bones beneath my skin. even though they don't stick out nearly enough as i want them to..
& lonely.
& empty.
new layout though.
i had the other one for just too long.
i'm occupying myself with this.
i bought it yesterday to keep me motivated/not bored. even though i shouldn't be spending what little money i have. i'm totally broke lately (cigarettes&marijuana). it sucks. i should get a job but i lack enough confidence to even HAND OUT my resume.
my mind is just all cluttered & my emotions are like a rollercoaster.
i wish i didn't still get my stupid period.
& i'm trying to think of something super-sweet to do for my ♥boyfriend tomorrow.
but, i'm totally lost. (nothing new)
i want to do something really special for him.
but i suck.
he has been there for me through through thick and thin & means the world to me.
sorry, getting all musshy up in here.
P.S - thank you all for your comments on my pics. I LOVE YOU GUYS!
you were all so sweet♥
P.P.S - i'm going to be in myrtle beach in 20 days. that means bikini time. i need motivation to loose. i'm scared. i'm scared to look at my body in the mirror, in fear i won't see the bones beneath my skin. even though they don't stick out nearly enough as i want them to..