Stressful Summer
I had enjoyed my mini break between school and work. I was looking forward to spending another summer working at my pool of choice and earning money. So far, things haven't been the greatest.
My parents had left for a a few days earlier in June so the rest of us had to figure out a way to carpool from one location to another. You think one person should just hitch a ride while another would take a vehicle and go to the further travled place. Too bad it just doesn't work that way with my siblings. After some discussion, it was decided my younger brother would take me while my older sister would take the car. At least my schedule was more settled and I would be able to wait easier.
I thought about making goals for summer, like I always do, but I'm just too tired and stressed out to do so. I wanted to go with my usual eating weight management, creating more original story ideas, and even play Kingdom Hearts before the start of school. Between shifts that last a long time six days a week and having little time over weekends is leaving me very tired.
I've looked at my hours, and I'm working between 35-37 hours. I am quite content with that, but I'm wondering if I'm even making more than I did last summer. Last summer, I worked very early to very late with a few hours break in between, but no weekends. This summer it's not as early but just a bit late, though it varies since I'm done by 7:15 or 7:20 pm while last summer I was around the same time since there were bathrooms that needed to be cleaning and no one wanted to clean up. Also, I did not work weenkends but now I am and I go to church by myself at 11:00 am. So, I am wondering if I had worked less but earned the same amount.
So far, I've been at least able to celebrate a friend's birthday and visit a new friend's house. I've been procrastinating the latter because I didn't want to go, I was tired, and person's place is different than meeting and talking outside of club. I'm glad I was able to have a good time, and I told him I would be busy for the rest of the summer.
But, there's still a long time to go before the end of my job and the start of school. What's scary is that the end of my job could be any day now. Although I do not need to worry about the city experiencing lay offs since it is just a summer job, the problem as of now is that I have already been written up twice. The first time was because, for some odd reason, I hadn't been placing names down in the books and/or in the proper spot. I feel so bad for the families who had honestly signed up but missed a lesson because of me. The costs for swim lessons isn't cheap. The second time is because I was short $14 and none of us could figure out the reason. I thought I was doing well considering I hadn't officially messed up on any deposits for the city until that day. Apparentlly there is a limit of how much is allowed to be over or under before a cashier is written up.
The city has a policy of three write ups and you're done. I'm walking on thin ice. I can feel my heart pound and my hands shake even more; every day feels like my last. I feel bad for causing my manager and everyone around me to do more work. This is my fourth summer and yet it feels like my hardest. I'm really scared about losing this job; if I do then I won't have one for next summer, and possibly the remainder of this one. I need cash to buy things I need, like textbooks and an electronic dictionary, as well as have some extra to have fun with friends who don't have a job.
I don't party, I try and figure out my time that I need to leave for work, and I always try and perform tasks that can be done since I only answer the phone and talk with parents about swim lessons. Another slip up I fear is being late. I already recieved my one warning about being late and I may get written up again if I arrive late once more. Growing old sucks.
I feel a bit of a Catch-22 going on with me. I can't really eat well since I'm tired, but I can't get any energy unless I eat better. I tried to gradually get off soda, but I just can't; the large amounts of sugar and carbon feels great to drink, especially since it's so hot. I could sleep more, but there are tasks I would like to get done. I could sleep more over the weekeneds, but then I would wasts almost my entire break before the start of work again.
Man, I sure do hope things will work out.
My parents had left for a a few days earlier in June so the rest of us had to figure out a way to carpool from one location to another. You think one person should just hitch a ride while another would take a vehicle and go to the further travled place. Too bad it just doesn't work that way with my siblings. After some discussion, it was decided my younger brother would take me while my older sister would take the car. At least my schedule was more settled and I would be able to wait easier.
I thought about making goals for summer, like I always do, but I'm just too tired and stressed out to do so. I wanted to go with my usual eating weight management, creating more original story ideas, and even play Kingdom Hearts before the start of school. Between shifts that last a long time six days a week and having little time over weekends is leaving me very tired.
I've looked at my hours, and I'm working between 35-37 hours. I am quite content with that, but I'm wondering if I'm even making more than I did last summer. Last summer, I worked very early to very late with a few hours break in between, but no weekends. This summer it's not as early but just a bit late, though it varies since I'm done by 7:15 or 7:20 pm while last summer I was around the same time since there were bathrooms that needed to be cleaning and no one wanted to clean up. Also, I did not work weenkends but now I am and I go to church by myself at 11:00 am. So, I am wondering if I had worked less but earned the same amount.
So far, I've been at least able to celebrate a friend's birthday and visit a new friend's house. I've been procrastinating the latter because I didn't want to go, I was tired, and person's place is different than meeting and talking outside of club. I'm glad I was able to have a good time, and I told him I would be busy for the rest of the summer.
But, there's still a long time to go before the end of my job and the start of school. What's scary is that the end of my job could be any day now. Although I do not need to worry about the city experiencing lay offs since it is just a summer job, the problem as of now is that I have already been written up twice. The first time was because, for some odd reason, I hadn't been placing names down in the books and/or in the proper spot. I feel so bad for the families who had honestly signed up but missed a lesson because of me. The costs for swim lessons isn't cheap. The second time is because I was short $14 and none of us could figure out the reason. I thought I was doing well considering I hadn't officially messed up on any deposits for the city until that day. Apparentlly there is a limit of how much is allowed to be over or under before a cashier is written up.
The city has a policy of three write ups and you're done. I'm walking on thin ice. I can feel my heart pound and my hands shake even more; every day feels like my last. I feel bad for causing my manager and everyone around me to do more work. This is my fourth summer and yet it feels like my hardest. I'm really scared about losing this job; if I do then I won't have one for next summer, and possibly the remainder of this one. I need cash to buy things I need, like textbooks and an electronic dictionary, as well as have some extra to have fun with friends who don't have a job.
I don't party, I try and figure out my time that I need to leave for work, and I always try and perform tasks that can be done since I only answer the phone and talk with parents about swim lessons. Another slip up I fear is being late. I already recieved my one warning about being late and I may get written up again if I arrive late once more. Growing old sucks.
I feel a bit of a Catch-22 going on with me. I can't really eat well since I'm tired, but I can't get any energy unless I eat better. I tried to gradually get off soda, but I just can't; the large amounts of sugar and carbon feels great to drink, especially since it's so hot. I could sleep more, but there are tasks I would like to get done. I could sleep more over the weekeneds, but then I would wasts almost my entire break before the start of work again.
Man, I sure do hope things will work out.