Smoking
so I'll be the first to admit I'm a pretty heavy smoker. It's usually about a pack a day, more on the weekends. I smoked for a year... quit for a year then started smoking again for another year. My four best guy-friends all smoke too, actually it was one of them to get me to pick up the nasty habbit again. It's always been really easy for me to get away with it because my mom smokes a few packs a day so she can't ever smell it on me and if I can't afford a new pack, I can always just slip one or two cigarettes out of hers and she never knows the difference. I guess I got cocky and that's why I got caught today.
part of the problem is that my mom thinks I'm a really good kid. I mean, I am aside from smoking and writting slash I don't do bad things. I quit drinking (because I used to just live wasted) and I've been sober for over a year now. I used to have a LOT of sex but cut that out too. My brother is always fucking up; he drinks every day, fucks around with chicks all the time and does dip (which I find disgusting) so My mom looks to me to be a good moral example. She can brag to everyone that even though I don't make the best grades, at least I have a good moral code. It kind of sucks because if he does something wrong it's okay, no one expects better from him. But if I fuck up it's a national crisis.
Anyways, one of my friends just got her liscense so she picked me up to go hang out today and I really did think about bringing my cigarettes with me but she's one of the few people I know who doesn't smoke, so I left them in my car. I have two hiding places for cigarettes and a really crappy third for empty cartons that I haven't thrown out yet. My center consol pops off so I keep my cigarettes there and one of my guyfriends always leaves his pack in my car in the glove box. Empty cartons go in those little side slots on the car doors.
My drive way is only two cars wide so I was parked behind my mom so my brother wouldn't be blocking me in when he got home. But since I was out all day, my mom had to move my car to leave. She opened the door and saw one of the empty cartons in the side pannel then immediatly checked the glove box where she found my friends pack and his lighter. (I'm 95% sure the empty pack was his too).
So she calls me up and we just have a normal chit chat on the phone then suddenly tells me that she's dissapointed in me. I was thinking it was because I have a C in math but wasn't sure so I asked her what for and she just said "I moved your car today... how many do you smoke a day?" I told her only two a day (which might be convincing because there's only one cigarette missing from the pack in the glove box). She was out and about but told me to get home. So here I am now.
I'm really pissed though because if that one stupid empty box hadn't been there then she never would've known and I wouldn't be in deep shit. I started to clean out my car so she wouldn't find other crap (like a REALLY OLD used condom wrapper and another REALLY OLD pregnancy test box) so I looked around for my keys to move it but she took them with her. This is unfortunate because my keys just so happen to have my flash drive on them. The flash drive that I store all my slash in, that is.
I already know I'm going to be in a whole SHIT LOAD of trouble when she gets home in a few minutes but I don't know what I'm going to do if she decides to look in my flash drive and read everything on it.
I'm kind of freaking out, I asked my brother for help and he just told me that she'd been suspecting that I was a smoker for a long time now so to not get too worked up over it and not to argue that she smokes too, that'll just make it worse. But I don't know what to say to her other than I'll quit (even though I probably wont) and I'm sorry (sorry I got caught).
Does anyone have any advice for a reasonable approach?
part of the problem is that my mom thinks I'm a really good kid. I mean, I am aside from smoking and writting slash I don't do bad things. I quit drinking (because I used to just live wasted) and I've been sober for over a year now. I used to have a LOT of sex but cut that out too. My brother is always fucking up; he drinks every day, fucks around with chicks all the time and does dip (which I find disgusting) so My mom looks to me to be a good moral example. She can brag to everyone that even though I don't make the best grades, at least I have a good moral code. It kind of sucks because if he does something wrong it's okay, no one expects better from him. But if I fuck up it's a national crisis.
Anyways, one of my friends just got her liscense so she picked me up to go hang out today and I really did think about bringing my cigarettes with me but she's one of the few people I know who doesn't smoke, so I left them in my car. I have two hiding places for cigarettes and a really crappy third for empty cartons that I haven't thrown out yet. My center consol pops off so I keep my cigarettes there and one of my guyfriends always leaves his pack in my car in the glove box. Empty cartons go in those little side slots on the car doors.
My drive way is only two cars wide so I was parked behind my mom so my brother wouldn't be blocking me in when he got home. But since I was out all day, my mom had to move my car to leave. She opened the door and saw one of the empty cartons in the side pannel then immediatly checked the glove box where she found my friends pack and his lighter. (I'm 95% sure the empty pack was his too).
So she calls me up and we just have a normal chit chat on the phone then suddenly tells me that she's dissapointed in me. I was thinking it was because I have a C in math but wasn't sure so I asked her what for and she just said "I moved your car today... how many do you smoke a day?" I told her only two a day (which might be convincing because there's only one cigarette missing from the pack in the glove box). She was out and about but told me to get home. So here I am now.
I'm really pissed though because if that one stupid empty box hadn't been there then she never would've known and I wouldn't be in deep shit. I started to clean out my car so she wouldn't find other crap (like a REALLY OLD used condom wrapper and another REALLY OLD pregnancy test box) so I looked around for my keys to move it but she took them with her. This is unfortunate because my keys just so happen to have my flash drive on them. The flash drive that I store all my slash in, that is.
I already know I'm going to be in a whole SHIT LOAD of trouble when she gets home in a few minutes but I don't know what I'm going to do if she decides to look in my flash drive and read everything on it.
I'm kind of freaking out, I asked my brother for help and he just told me that she'd been suspecting that I was a smoker for a long time now so to not get too worked up over it and not to argue that she smokes too, that'll just make it worse. But I don't know what to say to her other than I'll quit (even though I probably wont) and I'm sorry (sorry I got caught).
Does anyone have any advice for a reasonable approach?