The wheels on the bus go {pop!}
It's been six days since I wrote, and I still feel the need to have a bitch. I don't even know why... I thought I was doing alright today, but it turns out not.
I don't even want to talk about it. I literally just want to sleep and not wake up.
What I really need is for someone to just take the control of my life out of my hands for a few days. Make sure I eat, that I go to bed on time, that I'm alright. I'm not sure if I want such a thing, but I definitely need it.
I'm tired of all this bitching and moaning and hating the life I let myself fall into. I know it's my own fault I'm in this position... surely, surely recognising that and making the effort to change it proves I've learned from my mistakes?
I know it's my mess, but I can't fucking clean it without help I can't seem to get. I'm honestly sick of trying. I'm sick of bothering. I don't see a single, valid reason why I should drag myself from the bed tomorrow morning, or the next day, or any day after... and I wish I had a choice in the matter.
I don't even want to talk about it. I literally just want to sleep and not wake up.
What I really need is for someone to just take the control of my life out of my hands for a few days. Make sure I eat, that I go to bed on time, that I'm alright. I'm not sure if I want such a thing, but I definitely need it.
I'm tired of all this bitching and moaning and hating the life I let myself fall into. I know it's my own fault I'm in this position... surely, surely recognising that and making the effort to change it proves I've learned from my mistakes?
I know it's my mess, but I can't fucking clean it without help I can't seem to get. I'm honestly sick of trying. I'm sick of bothering. I don't see a single, valid reason why I should drag myself from the bed tomorrow morning, or the next day, or any day after... and I wish I had a choice in the matter.