Kicking the pain cup
In this wonderful chaotic mess I'm free from all the oppression. The mental pain which I'm driven to endure for my futile existance is haulted and given a sedative stab.
I feel like cutting myself ,at the same time I feel rather discusted with myself If i did it. I saw myself today and felt that same feeling. God..What I would give for plastic surgery!
I wish I could go on that extream makeover show. Its the worst feeling in the world knowing you are ugly and can not do anything about it. This world is based on image! No matter what anyone says,its a unconscious thing we do each day. That's the field I'm wanting to go in to so I would know. What appeals to the eye at first site. I do not have that fucking appeal.
Grrr! Frustrated!---Envy-- Is my worst sin.
I feel like cutting myself ,at the same time I feel rather discusted with myself If i did it. I saw myself today and felt that same feeling. God..What I would give for plastic surgery!
I wish I could go on that extream makeover show. Its the worst feeling in the world knowing you are ugly and can not do anything about it. This world is based on image! No matter what anyone says,its a unconscious thing we do each day. That's the field I'm wanting to go in to so I would know. What appeals to the eye at first site. I do not have that fucking appeal.
Grrr! Frustrated!---Envy-- Is my worst sin.