idiots
I'm totally frustrated with my friends. I'm sick of people, in general, who say they're going to do something and never stick by their word. I'm sick of people throwing their lives away and taking things for granted. I'm also sick of caring about other people so much that I can't concentrate on shit that I have to do for myself. I wish I could be as cold as some of the people I know, that I could just write people off forever as a waste of life and not think twice about it. But that's not the kind of person that I am, and for this reason I believe I am destined to be miserable, stressed, sad, disappointed, etc. I am by no means perfect and I have done tons of irresponsible, inconsiderate, unappreciative things, but it still makes me upset when other people make the same mistakes I did. I wish people would learn from their mistakes and grow up and stop feeling sorry for themselves and make the most of what they've been given. I get sad and angry and feel hopeless sometimes and in the past it has totally snowballed into crazy, self-destructive behavior. Everyone has their own values and morals and all of that and I'm not saying that I am a role model whatsoever, but I like to think that I'm basically a good person and I have never done anything to intentionally hurt anyone else. I really don't know where I'm going with this, it started as one thing and totally evolved into this huge rant/self-inspection but the bottom line is I think I might start to distance myself from people I'm close to until they wake up because I don't want to lose any more sleep over stupid people and their selfish decisions.
done.
done.