busy bee...
so right now is really stressful. ive just finished a musicianship final, i have a piano final tomorrow, a keyboard lab final on thursday, an ear training final on friday (which im not too worried about), a choir concert on sunday, a lecture theory music final on monday, and a paper due tuesday.
ive been practicing my piano piece for a long time now, but its still shaky. the rhythms are just off so its tricky. and its so frustrating because no matter how hard i practice, i always go to my piano teacher and mess up horribly, and she gets the impression that im a slacker and dont practice. although shes nice, she really is the most intimidating teacher i have ever had. but ive practiced all that i can, so i just have to go tomorrow to piano and do my best, and hope for the best as well.
good news also. i had one of my voice lessons, a couple last ones of the quarter, today. and my voice teacher was like gosh i wish there was a way that i can keep you doing lessons with me (since im dropping the minor i technically am not allowed to anymore). she really likes me a lot and says that im just getting started on some great progress. so i was so excited to hear her say today that shes going to keep me because she likes me so much, despite what the rules of the music dept are. "im the voice teacher and i can teach who ever i want!" is what she said, haha.
i just feel so good that she has this much faith in me. i feel like ive never had anyone believe in me as much as she has. my choir teacher in high school just had favorites and never tried to see what potential i have, and that just because im shy and i dont suck up to her, doesnt mean that im not willing to give potential. but my voice teacher patrice sees past my shyness and is working with it. i made some good progress today, im really pleased. and im happy that i get to stay in my vocal rep class and voice lessons without having the chaos of music 30. so i will also be doing concert choir next quarter aaannnd gospel. so this means i have 24 units for next quarter. MORE than this quarter! but the 9 other units are like my fun freetime, music stuff that i enjoy, so its not like work. i am so looking forward to next quarter now. i was going to miss patrice, my voice teacher, but now i can still have her. im so grateful to her. it just feels so good to have someone believe in you as much as she does. and yes, i know that my family believes in me, of course. but this is different. she is a professional, and she likes me. she sees what i can do and works with what i have, instead of disregarding me because i dont lavish her with attention and sucking-upness.
yea, i am annoyed about my HS choir experience. it became this awful elitist little club, the madrigal choir. its always been that way. it gets less worse as the years go by, well i dunno about now, but it did before. but it shouldnt be that way anyways (attitudes i mean, egos, etc). i hated how everyone had to be in the top choir or their lives were over. i was that way too. but shit, it really is all about singing. it doesnt matter what level youre fricking in, if you love it, you love it, and thats that. my high school choir teacher for me, made singing not fun, a lot. the fact that i dreaded going to choir on a lot of days, makes me sad to look back on. it shouldnt be that way.
anyways, enough with my rant, haha. so jon and i basically wont see each other til like saturday im thinking, at this rate. because we're both ridiculously busy. i will miss him but at the same time i just dont have time to think about it. ill just be happy when i get to see him again.
anyways its late. i have a frickin final tomorrow, poo. and its my last lecture for music 30 this quarter, which i am STOKED about. so yea. thats all, goodnight. :O)
ive been practicing my piano piece for a long time now, but its still shaky. the rhythms are just off so its tricky. and its so frustrating because no matter how hard i practice, i always go to my piano teacher and mess up horribly, and she gets the impression that im a slacker and dont practice. although shes nice, she really is the most intimidating teacher i have ever had. but ive practiced all that i can, so i just have to go tomorrow to piano and do my best, and hope for the best as well.
good news also. i had one of my voice lessons, a couple last ones of the quarter, today. and my voice teacher was like gosh i wish there was a way that i can keep you doing lessons with me (since im dropping the minor i technically am not allowed to anymore). she really likes me a lot and says that im just getting started on some great progress. so i was so excited to hear her say today that shes going to keep me because she likes me so much, despite what the rules of the music dept are. "im the voice teacher and i can teach who ever i want!" is what she said, haha.
i just feel so good that she has this much faith in me. i feel like ive never had anyone believe in me as much as she has. my choir teacher in high school just had favorites and never tried to see what potential i have, and that just because im shy and i dont suck up to her, doesnt mean that im not willing to give potential. but my voice teacher patrice sees past my shyness and is working with it. i made some good progress today, im really pleased. and im happy that i get to stay in my vocal rep class and voice lessons without having the chaos of music 30. so i will also be doing concert choir next quarter aaannnd gospel. so this means i have 24 units for next quarter. MORE than this quarter! but the 9 other units are like my fun freetime, music stuff that i enjoy, so its not like work. i am so looking forward to next quarter now. i was going to miss patrice, my voice teacher, but now i can still have her. im so grateful to her. it just feels so good to have someone believe in you as much as she does. and yes, i know that my family believes in me, of course. but this is different. she is a professional, and she likes me. she sees what i can do and works with what i have, instead of disregarding me because i dont lavish her with attention and sucking-upness.
yea, i am annoyed about my HS choir experience. it became this awful elitist little club, the madrigal choir. its always been that way. it gets less worse as the years go by, well i dunno about now, but it did before. but it shouldnt be that way anyways (attitudes i mean, egos, etc). i hated how everyone had to be in the top choir or their lives were over. i was that way too. but shit, it really is all about singing. it doesnt matter what level youre fricking in, if you love it, you love it, and thats that. my high school choir teacher for me, made singing not fun, a lot. the fact that i dreaded going to choir on a lot of days, makes me sad to look back on. it shouldnt be that way.
anyways, enough with my rant, haha. so jon and i basically wont see each other til like saturday im thinking, at this rate. because we're both ridiculously busy. i will miss him but at the same time i just dont have time to think about it. ill just be happy when i get to see him again.
anyways its late. i have a frickin final tomorrow, poo. and its my last lecture for music 30 this quarter, which i am STOKED about. so yea. thats all, goodnight. :O)