what a feeling in my soul...
yea. cant wait til this quarter is over. its getting to be too much. i know everyone is tired of me saying this now. im just so, over it. over the music theory and over it all. i actually like lit 101, but im just over fall quarter i suppose. next week will be quite short though. im probably gonna go home around tuesday afternoon.
oh and roman, yeah if you read this. i get out of class on tuesday at like 2, so we can leave around 3pm?
so this is my schedule now, just to do a compare and contrast for this and next quarter:
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Monday: 930-1040 music theory, 11-1210 music ear training, 1-4 work, 5-645 choir
Tuesday: 8-945 Lit 101, 10-1 work, 1-2 musicianship lab, 3-4 vocal repertoire
Wednesday: 930-1040 music theory, 11-1210 ear training, 1230-130 piano lab, 2-4 work, 4-5 voice lesson, 5-645 choir, 7-10 lit 101 film screening
Thursday: 8-945 lit 101, 10-1pm work, 1-2 keyboard lab, 3-4 vocal repertoire, 6-7 section
Friday: A lighter day. 11-1210 music ear training, 1230-130 piano lab, 2-4 work.
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so thats my schedule right now guys its awful. but heres next quarter!
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M: 930-1040 british canon literature, 11-1210 british canon section, then work
T: 10-1145 Harlem renaissance literature, 12-145 california geology, 2-3 geology section
W: 930-1040 canon, work
TH: 10-1145 Harlem renaissance literature, 12-145 california geology, work, 6-710 harlem section, 730-930 GOSPEL CHOIR!
F: 930-1040 canon, work
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so thats much better. gosh that took a long time to write up haha. its just hard right now. these past few days i havent had time for anything. i never see my housemates. and i never see jon. i went a while without seeing him. so i ran to see him one day in between classes like for 5 minutes and it was as if he hadnt seen me in like a month, it made me so sad. he was like "we never have time for each other anymore...". oh man my little heart just broke.
dont think im dropping this minor for jon, lol. thatd be a stupid reason and thats not it. i just, want to be able to breathe. i have no time for anything, i hardly have a social life. im tired of having little emotional breakdowns bc i cant handle shit. i was talking to this guy last night at chris' party and he was saying that he is burnt out this quarter too, and its as though we dont know how much we cant take on until we burn ourselves out.
and i definitely agree with that. and its funny because im doing well in music right now. im passing in everything quiz/midterm im taking and its good. and i didnt realize that perfect pitch is so rare. so a few students are like confused as to why im quitting when i have this sorta advantage.
and maybe i was meant to be a music major. i love to sing, but i dont want to be a professional singer. i dont want to be an opera singer or anything and go to auditions, or compose songs either. i feel that for myself, i have so much more i can give. not downplaying music majors or anything, but i just dont think it would be fulfilling for me personally, because i would not be truly helping anyone with it. i would feel as though it is too, self benefitting. i think since i care so much about people, i should do something with it. i dont think a lot of people have this feeling of wanting to help all the time.
i stayed at jons last night bc there was a party at chris'. and i woke up at 6am and all of a sudden started to worry about claire, jon's roommates girlfriend (who was also staying there). i went into the living room and was asking chris where she was and he was like i dont know (i dunno how they were still up too!! :OP ). and claire came out of the bathroom and like fell on the floor because she felt faint. i just thought it was so strange that i decided to wake up then, like how the hell did i know she was gonna be hurt? it was soooo bizarre...
that might be confusing or sound like bullshit to everyone else haha. wow i just realized while typing this out, why im not pursuing music. i already mentioned it in here so i wont retype it again.
meh im tired of all this banter. it doesnt seem to make sense to anyone but me really.
oh and roman, yeah if you read this. i get out of class on tuesday at like 2, so we can leave around 3pm?
so this is my schedule now, just to do a compare and contrast for this and next quarter:
~~~~~~
Monday: 930-1040 music theory, 11-1210 music ear training, 1-4 work, 5-645 choir
Tuesday: 8-945 Lit 101, 10-1 work, 1-2 musicianship lab, 3-4 vocal repertoire
Wednesday: 930-1040 music theory, 11-1210 ear training, 1230-130 piano lab, 2-4 work, 4-5 voice lesson, 5-645 choir, 7-10 lit 101 film screening
Thursday: 8-945 lit 101, 10-1pm work, 1-2 keyboard lab, 3-4 vocal repertoire, 6-7 section
Friday: A lighter day. 11-1210 music ear training, 1230-130 piano lab, 2-4 work.
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so thats my schedule right now guys its awful. but heres next quarter!
~~~~~~~
M: 930-1040 british canon literature, 11-1210 british canon section, then work
T: 10-1145 Harlem renaissance literature, 12-145 california geology, 2-3 geology section
W: 930-1040 canon, work
TH: 10-1145 Harlem renaissance literature, 12-145 california geology, work, 6-710 harlem section, 730-930 GOSPEL CHOIR!
F: 930-1040 canon, work
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so thats much better. gosh that took a long time to write up haha. its just hard right now. these past few days i havent had time for anything. i never see my housemates. and i never see jon. i went a while without seeing him. so i ran to see him one day in between classes like for 5 minutes and it was as if he hadnt seen me in like a month, it made me so sad. he was like "we never have time for each other anymore...". oh man my little heart just broke.
dont think im dropping this minor for jon, lol. thatd be a stupid reason and thats not it. i just, want to be able to breathe. i have no time for anything, i hardly have a social life. im tired of having little emotional breakdowns bc i cant handle shit. i was talking to this guy last night at chris' party and he was saying that he is burnt out this quarter too, and its as though we dont know how much we cant take on until we burn ourselves out.
and i definitely agree with that. and its funny because im doing well in music right now. im passing in everything quiz/midterm im taking and its good. and i didnt realize that perfect pitch is so rare. so a few students are like confused as to why im quitting when i have this sorta advantage.
and maybe i was meant to be a music major. i love to sing, but i dont want to be a professional singer. i dont want to be an opera singer or anything and go to auditions, or compose songs either. i feel that for myself, i have so much more i can give. not downplaying music majors or anything, but i just dont think it would be fulfilling for me personally, because i would not be truly helping anyone with it. i would feel as though it is too, self benefitting. i think since i care so much about people, i should do something with it. i dont think a lot of people have this feeling of wanting to help all the time.
i stayed at jons last night bc there was a party at chris'. and i woke up at 6am and all of a sudden started to worry about claire, jon's roommates girlfriend (who was also staying there). i went into the living room and was asking chris where she was and he was like i dont know (i dunno how they were still up too!! :OP ). and claire came out of the bathroom and like fell on the floor because she felt faint. i just thought it was so strange that i decided to wake up then, like how the hell did i know she was gonna be hurt? it was soooo bizarre...
that might be confusing or sound like bullshit to everyone else haha. wow i just realized while typing this out, why im not pursuing music. i already mentioned it in here so i wont retype it again.
meh im tired of all this banter. it doesnt seem to make sense to anyone but me really.