Everybody Hurts...Sometimes

[4shaw]

Do you ever have that moment where you just feel that you don't know yourself as well as you thought you did? Where you begin to question your beliefs and whether you truly believe in what you have come to stand for, both in your own mind and the eyes of others? I'm felling that way right now and it's turning into a mini-crisis for me

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[olieflatts]

First and foremost we all do things to better ourselves, it's human nature, survival of the fittest if you will. It's not a bad thing if you don't look out for yourself who will? I know that comes off sounding a little cold...and even more so ginvin the source lol but its the truth. Sure we help out friends and family and even strangers sometimes just for the hell of it, but in all honesty we get somthing out of it to. You feel good about yourself after helping someone. Of all the things in the world to beat yourself up over the fact that you "bend over backwards" to help out your friends is the least of your worries. Even if you think you only do it for "some smug sense of satisfaction" you still do it. everyone wants to feel superior and very few people do stuff just for the sake of doing it, everyone wante recognition. It just feels good.

As for the kettle thing you are making Waaaay to big of a deal of the whole thing. First of all her actual birthday isint till the sunday so you can make up for lost time then. Second at the latest you can get their at like 7:30 - 8 Nothing ever happens before then anyway, its not like the party is gonna end at 10:30 or somthing no one has a bed time that I'm aware of (and if they do you have some lame ass friends lol) Go do the thing at the mall to honour your grandfather because you and i both know (even before reading her post above mine) that she will want you to honour him obviously its somthing important to you since you have continued to do it for 5 years. You're not breaking your word to Holly you're still gonna be their you just have things to take care of first.