Just popping in
Hey y'all.....
I know I haven't posted here in like forever, but I promise I have been reading and enjoying keeping up with you all.
As so often happens, I'm actually here to beg for prayer. Life has been interesting for me for about the past month. Remember that panic attack I had back in December 09? Well, I've had trouble with this off and on ever since, but usually it would be a day or two of feeling "off" with gaps of months in between. For about the past month, though, it's been daily. Not that I give in to full-blown attacks every day, but I feel like I'm spending all day every day trying to hold it together and NOT succumb. It's not fun. Heart racing, breathing problems, tingly hands.... I feel like I can't mother my babies properly or even begin to live "in the moment" as I so value because I'm in defense mode, warding off something that's trying to overwhelm me. I'm trying a couple of things right now and hoping to see lasting improvement soon. Trying to not get depressed by this. Trying to figure out if I should give in to drugs, but overwhelmed by the descriptions of side effects and the thought of living in a foggy stupor or something. They all say, "use caution when doing anything that requires you to be awake and alert".... does being a Mommy fall under that description? It would seem so to me!
So anyway..... just trying to make it here. Begging God always for the strength to make it through another day. I thank you for being here and listening and would be so glad to have your prayers supporting me as well.
I know I haven't posted here in like forever, but I promise I have been reading and enjoying keeping up with you all.
As so often happens, I'm actually here to beg for prayer. Life has been interesting for me for about the past month. Remember that panic attack I had back in December 09? Well, I've had trouble with this off and on ever since, but usually it would be a day or two of feeling "off" with gaps of months in between. For about the past month, though, it's been daily. Not that I give in to full-blown attacks every day, but I feel like I'm spending all day every day trying to hold it together and NOT succumb. It's not fun. Heart racing, breathing problems, tingly hands.... I feel like I can't mother my babies properly or even begin to live "in the moment" as I so value because I'm in defense mode, warding off something that's trying to overwhelm me. I'm trying a couple of things right now and hoping to see lasting improvement soon. Trying to not get depressed by this. Trying to figure out if I should give in to drugs, but overwhelmed by the descriptions of side effects and the thought of living in a foggy stupor or something. They all say, "use caution when doing anything that requires you to be awake and alert".... does being a Mommy fall under that description? It would seem so to me!
So anyway..... just trying to make it here. Begging God always for the strength to make it through another day. I thank you for being here and listening and would be so glad to have your prayers supporting me as well.