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wow, this week has definently had alot of ups and downs... :-/ i feel so.. alone. and it really sucks. sunday was jezka's birthday, which was fun, hope ur birthday was great jezka. :) but not only did we celebrate on sunday, but her actual party was yesterday, but idk i was kinda not in the best mood most of the time, so i just drank whatever came my way and just got really fucked up, while jezka kept tryin to get me to talk to brian... which kinda got me pissed off a little i guess. idk why. i broke up with sean on wednesday, which was really hard because i didnt wanna hurt him, but i didnt wanna end up fucking our relationship up in the end, and i knew it would have happened... but idk, im just soo confused its not even funny, and i fuckin hate it! i kinda have feelings for someone that i've been talking to and have had feelings for in the past, and i guess he kinda has some feelings for me so he says, but i dont think they're strong enough for anything to happen...and i kinda dont want anything to happen, but at the same time i do, which really really sucks. i just dont know what to do or think anymore, i wish someone could just help me out and fuckin tell me what to do, because im soo lost right now. i hate this. everythings just hitting me in the face all at once, and i just cant deal with it all, i've been going through too much to complicate my life anymore, and thats what's happening... everythings getting so fucking complicated, and all i wanna do is be happy. yet i cant seem to do that, Ever! just let one good thing happen to me, thats all i want! but i'll probably never get it. :-/ but idk, im kinda out of it right now, so im gonna stop rambling on about pointless shit...
so peace out.
keep it real.
xoxo
so peace out.
keep it real.
xoxo