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I officially feel fucking gross. "Oh, you can`t weigh more than 110!" But, yes I can. I don`t see how people can look at me & think I weigh 110? I don`t know what I`m going to do yet. I don`t want to fast because it scares the fuck out of everyone & Daddy will start his "I`m gonna take you to the hospital." shit & no one here needs that. Liquid fast sounds good. I`m only eating one meal a day right now, but I`m thinking of going liquids only. Slim fast? Maybe. I`m not sure that it works.. I have Zantrax 3 right now (thank you to a very sweet girl!) but only have a few more left. I`m thinking of taking four a day until they`re gone (which will only be like 2-3 days) You`re supposed to take them with food, but whateva. I miss my one-hundred-and-seven-pound days. What the fuck happened? I`m huge and I hate it. I`ve got to start walking again, defintely. I hate walking by myself, because I`ve turned into such a people person (I don`t like being alone) but everyone either has to work, or is just too damn lazy to walk with me. It`s three miles, what the hell? I walk six miles on some days & people think three is just ungodly or something. I will not turn into another obese American. Damn, it`s already hard as hell to get through the halls now, damn fatasses.
Okay, damn, I`ve gotten all wound up about this shit. I hate being fat, hate it. "You want frozen pizzas?" Holy hell, no way.
Holy fuck, I hate this. Damn.
*runs away to barf*