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hello guys, to whoever is reading this hahah. anyway i kinda abandoned my livejournal for quite awhile,dot know why i did that, but i probably forgotten about it cos i dont really post here so not used to it. haha but im going to try my best to revive it again!
so my diet hasnt really been successful, with my sis coming back to sg and we gg out to eat good food:( sigh i really hope i can lose weight before i go korea with hazel. or at least before i start school next year. speaking of which, its like 80 days to A levels i think, i kinda feel worried cos i feel so relaxed about it now. its like i am studying everyday,but it seems like im nt as stressed like last time. i still do my work and all,but the feeling is just different. i dont have any timetables to follow this time, i dint even countdown the days to A levels(the days above was told to me by my friend). i just hope i can be prepared enough by Nov, and do it well this time to get into uni. hope hope hope i wont have a panic breakdown like i always do in major exams:s NO OKAY I WONT. I MUST TELL MYSELF THAT AND BELIEVE IN WHAT I SAY. the sadness of not getting into uni is still there,seeing all my friends going for lectures tgt makes me sad and the thought of going lectures alone myself in future,or even having different groups of uni friends from them makes me so sad. well i guess im just too sheltered and dependent on my friends. i dont wanna make new friends. more like im afraid of doing it,i am just contented with life as it is now. oh well guess i got to start making ew friends next year if i wanna survive uni. My friends are all going to have a common topic to talk about that i wont know so i will always be left out of the convo. well not blaming anybody here, i just feel sad. im just an emotional person and i think alot. haiiii hopefully things wont be as bad as i picture it to be.
back to my diet, i am really trying my best to lose weight but its so fustrating cos i exercise everyday and dont eat alot but yet theres no results. sighhh how did i even lose weight last time. i guess whats lacking is really the determination i had last time. i dont knw how i possessed that much determination but i guessed it was cos i saw results from it. I may seem like a determined person rn, but look at myself last time and im totally not considered disciplined now. esp in food. goshhhhh please give me back my determination and will to push on and achieve my goal. i dont wanna die fat and obese and sad:(
gahhh such an emo comeback post. but on the other hand i feel so much better pouring put all my feelings. tmrw will be a better day!!!!!
so my diet hasnt really been successful, with my sis coming back to sg and we gg out to eat good food:( sigh i really hope i can lose weight before i go korea with hazel. or at least before i start school next year. speaking of which, its like 80 days to A levels i think, i kinda feel worried cos i feel so relaxed about it now. its like i am studying everyday,but it seems like im nt as stressed like last time. i still do my work and all,but the feeling is just different. i dont have any timetables to follow this time, i dint even countdown the days to A levels(the days above was told to me by my friend). i just hope i can be prepared enough by Nov, and do it well this time to get into uni. hope hope hope i wont have a panic breakdown like i always do in major exams:s NO OKAY I WONT. I MUST TELL MYSELF THAT AND BELIEVE IN WHAT I SAY. the sadness of not getting into uni is still there,seeing all my friends going for lectures tgt makes me sad and the thought of going lectures alone myself in future,or even having different groups of uni friends from them makes me so sad. well i guess im just too sheltered and dependent on my friends. i dont wanna make new friends. more like im afraid of doing it,i am just contented with life as it is now. oh well guess i got to start making ew friends next year if i wanna survive uni. My friends are all going to have a common topic to talk about that i wont know so i will always be left out of the convo. well not blaming anybody here, i just feel sad. im just an emotional person and i think alot. haiiii hopefully things wont be as bad as i picture it to be.
back to my diet, i am really trying my best to lose weight but its so fustrating cos i exercise everyday and dont eat alot but yet theres no results. sighhh how did i even lose weight last time. i guess whats lacking is really the determination i had last time. i dont knw how i possessed that much determination but i guessed it was cos i saw results from it. I may seem like a determined person rn, but look at myself last time and im totally not considered disciplined now. esp in food. goshhhhh please give me back my determination and will to push on and achieve my goal. i dont wanna die fat and obese and sad:(
gahhh such an emo comeback post. but on the other hand i feel so much better pouring put all my feelings. tmrw will be a better day!!!!!