How do people end up here.. like this..
jeremy (1:22:56 AM): love isnt real eb
jeremy (1:22:58 AM): sorry
ebony (1:23:06 AM): yeah it is. it isn't real to you
jeremy (1:23:17 AM): its like santa clause
jeremy (1:23:22 AM): or the tooth fairy
jeremy (1:23:24 AM): its made up
ebony (1:23:26 AM): when you feel something, it's real to you.
ebony (1:23:29 AM): when you havent, it isn't
jeremy (1:24:01 AM): love is for pussies looking for a shoulder to cry on lol
ebony (1:24:13 AM): love isnt about crying jer
jeremy (1:24:38 AM): its like i looove you shut you attached bitch and get back to smokeing my dong
ebony (1:24:56 AM): thats your thought process. that's your ideal of how it is.
jeremy (1:25:02 AM): true
ebony (1:25:02 AM): that isn't how it is for me.
jeremy (1:25:11 AM): what is it for you
ebony (1:25:19 AM): it's a lot
jeremy (1:25:24 AM): being held and shit and telling all your serects to
jeremy (1:25:30 AM): someone
ebony (1:25:34 AM): no.
jeremy (1:25:50 AM): oh hold me hold your self bitch lofuckinl
ebony (1:25:57 AM): no
ebony (1:26:04 AM): love is so much more than that to me.
jeremy (1:26:09 AM): what is it
ebony (1:26:10 AM): it's so hard to explain
jeremy (1:26:39 AM): explain it a little
jeremy (1:27:46 AM): or are you crying still lol
jeremy (1:28:12 AM): i'd take that cd and shatter it and take a fat piss on it
ebony (1:28:45 AM): it's just this feeling.. you just want to take care of the person, you want nothing more than for them to be okay, to be happy forever. you want to protect them, you want to make them feel secure and you want them to feel the love you have for them. you want to make sure they're never hurt by anyone. you just feel such a strong feeling of respect and caring for them.. you're with them unconditionally, through anything. you would do anything for them, anything at all.. you live for them. you're willing to show them a side of you no ones seen and they're accepting of you and vice versa.. love is so weird, it's too many things. you're so jaded.
jeremy (1:29:45 AM): yep
jeremy (1:29:49 AM): jaded like it aint no thang
ebony (1:29:59 AM): i wish i could make you feel that stuff because it's the best feeling
ebony (1:30:14 AM): to have someone love you would heal you in a way
jeremy (1:30:18 AM): for me it would be like puting a cig out on my tounge
ebony (1:30:43 AM): you need to break down that wall you put up around you. you're capable of being loved.. i know you don't think so
ebony (1:30:45 AM): you are
jeremy (1:31:10 AM): this wall is like fort knox this bitch isnt ever coming down
ebony (1:31:39 AM): you'll be lonely your whole life. i dont want it to be like that for you. you deserve someone. i know you want someone.. i now you will want someone
jeremy (1:31:56 AM): naw i'm cool where i'm at
ebony (1:32:07 AM): but that coolness wont last forever
jeremy (1:32:19 AM): one stands is enough for me
ebony (1:32:23 AM): you'll want someone to come home to
jeremy (1:32:32 AM): yeah my dog
ebony (1:32:32 AM): you'll want someone to hug and kiss you:-)
jeremy (1:32:45 AM): naw
ebony (1:33:00 AM): you'll want someone who'll love you because and only because you're you and because you make them feel good... for no reason but that will they love you
jeremy (1:33:42 AM): naw i'll just push them away and be like GET OUT >:o
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jeremy (1:42:30 AM): i would be happy if i was fat paid and had maids dusting off my sac and fixing my dinner
ebony (1:43:03 AM): well whatever makes you happy
jeremy (1:43:10 AM): like hef
jeremy (1:43:14 AM): that dude is like 60
ebonye (1:43:21 AM): hef has 2 kids
ebony (1:43:23 AM): he had a wife
jeremy (1:43:24 AM): so
ebony (1:43:29 AM): even he knew
ebony (1:43:33 AM): he wanted to be loved
jeremy (1:43:37 AM): he lives with like 500 bitches
jeremy (1:43:55 AM): well like 100
ebony (1:44:06 AM): yeah but eventually he'll get married again because everyone wants that one person. everyone but you.
jeremy (1:44:13 AM): yep
ebony (1:44:27 AM): in this world where everyones a fucking asshole... people want someone, anyone they can bond with
jeremy (1:44:28 AM): i get all the lovein i need in one night
ebony (1:44:33 AM): no one wants to go through life alone
ebony (1:44:47 AM): love isn't just sex. love is so much more, you'll never ever know
jeremy (1:44:52 AM): in this world the ass holes run it
ebony (1:45:06 AM): no the assholes are the ones who THINK they run it.
jeremy (1:45:11 AM): they do
jeremy (1:45:59 AM): who do you think pays your mom
jeremy (1:46:03 AM): some asshole
ebony (1:46:31 AM): assholes run the world, maybe? but they don't run individual lives
jeremy (1:46:40 AM): true
jeremy (1:46:44 AM): i have a life
ebony (1:46:46 AM): they dont run my life or control my emotions, they dont control who i love, who loves me.
jeremy (1:47:02 AM): yeah but they control everything else
ebony (1:47:43 AM): well all i care about is my life.. and individuals lives.. so what if i have to pay money to go over a bridge, so what if i have to work for a paycheck.
ebony (1:47:49 AM): that shit doesnt matter
jeremy (1:48:07 AM): yeah
ebony (1:48:11 AM): it's who you touch and what you do with your life that makes it worth while.
jeremy (1:48:17 AM): naw
ebony (1:48:20 AM): thats what you leave the fucking world remembering
jeremy (1:48:31 AM): nobody remembers you lol
ebony (1:48:36 AM): you'll leave the earth alone, except for me, mike and pete at your funeral
jeremy (1:48:39 AM): your just a blur in the paper
ebony (1:48:46 AM): not if you have family and friends
jeremy (1:48:51 AM): nobody will be their
ebony (1:48:52 AM): and a spouse or kids
jeremy (1:49:00 AM): i'll be like 8-)
ebony (1:49:01 AM): but while you're alive they will be
jeremy (1:49:27 AM): if i die it'll be in like a car crash or some shit
jeremy (1:49:31 AM): or geting shot
ebony (1:49:37 AM): k whatever.
ebony (1:49:42 AM): i'm done talking this over with you
ebony (1:49:48 AM): you live your life, i'll live mine
jeremy (1:49:52 AM): and nobody will ever know