shit
So I figured that from mid Jan when I was at my highest weight (220) I have lost 16lbs total.
Im now 204.
Which is still shamefully HUGE. I remember the days of my LW of 124. I looked damn good. I just am afraid that if I get back down to that, I will still look as ugly to me as I do now. =(
I figure I gotta just keep pushing on though.
Im hoping to lose 15lbs by the 22nd, which is a short deadline, but I will give it a shot. Its the Kittie concert, and I want to lose some weight for it. I then want to lose another 15-20lbs for graduation May 25. I want to look good when I leave this hellhole. Then over summer if I push hard enough, then maybe I will be able to lose another 35. In total it would bring me down to 189, then 169, then 134 for college. I have a lot of days of nasty binging that I have to undo. I feel so ashamed of myself for letting me gain all this weight back in the first place.
Im now 204.
Which is still shamefully HUGE. I remember the days of my LW of 124. I looked damn good. I just am afraid that if I get back down to that, I will still look as ugly to me as I do now. =(
I figure I gotta just keep pushing on though.
Im hoping to lose 15lbs by the 22nd, which is a short deadline, but I will give it a shot. Its the Kittie concert, and I want to lose some weight for it. I then want to lose another 15-20lbs for graduation May 25. I want to look good when I leave this hellhole. Then over summer if I push hard enough, then maybe I will be able to lose another 35. In total it would bring me down to 189, then 169, then 134 for college. I have a lot of days of nasty binging that I have to undo. I feel so ashamed of myself for letting me gain all this weight back in the first place.