Changes
All in all, 2008 was a pretty good year. I'm finally starting to learn how to be happy. I had a good year with someone very special.
Speaking of which, amends were made, with stipulations, after a long talk. There were problems I didn't even know about, and problems with myself that I let get out of control, all things that need to change regardless of my relationship. I'll just say I'm happy to have him back, and happy for us to get out of our rut. Many things were brought to my attention that have really made me think, so here's my list of 2009 Resolutions. I have a bad habit of not following resolutions, but these are realistic! In no particular order:
1) Find my independence. Too much time with one person, all the time, for no reason, cheapens a good relationship. I'm not throwing away something important because we were bored. When it's time again (in the summer), I was thinking about trying out for the Rollergirls. Maybe I'll start a film club, like a book club, with all my film nerd friends. Weekly meetings with a screening and critical discussion!
2) Re-evaluate those with whom I surround myself. It makes me wonder about myself when I have friends who steal and lie. It's time for me to grow up. My status as a graduate student keeps me from having the money to move on to some more adult things, but I can certainly remove myself from the endless parties of early 20somethings. Reconnect with distanced friends who have their lives together, and learn from them.
3) Curb my tongue. I can't believe I let myself turn into a crabby old lady who might get mad at something totally not worth it. I just need to watch what I say, and count to ten before I think I might say something not good.
4) Read more, watch more films, drink less. This one goes along with re-evaluating my social circles. There are a lot of things to do that don't have to involve drinking, and I should be wary of people who can't do anything without alcohol. I don't have to be a hermit because I don't want to be a drunk. I upped my Netflix subscription so I hopefully won't go through days and days of no DVDs to watch. I just have to remind myself not to let them sit around for 4 months. If I haven't tried to watch it by then, I probably don't really want to, and should just send it back!
5) Weed out negativity. Focus on things I like. A good first step is to stop reading the Craigslist Rants and Raves, I think.
6) RELAX! Getting too stressed out makes me clingy in hopes of comfort, grouchy, and likely to run out with questionable friends to drown my worries in a pint glass. I think hitting the gym 3 or 4 times a week will help TREMENDOUSLY, plus I'll feel and look better physically.
I have to stick with it. In short, I just want to be a better person. I'm ready to be an adult.
Speaking of which, amends were made, with stipulations, after a long talk. There were problems I didn't even know about, and problems with myself that I let get out of control, all things that need to change regardless of my relationship. I'll just say I'm happy to have him back, and happy for us to get out of our rut. Many things were brought to my attention that have really made me think, so here's my list of 2009 Resolutions. I have a bad habit of not following resolutions, but these are realistic! In no particular order:
1) Find my independence. Too much time with one person, all the time, for no reason, cheapens a good relationship. I'm not throwing away something important because we were bored. When it's time again (in the summer), I was thinking about trying out for the Rollergirls. Maybe I'll start a film club, like a book club, with all my film nerd friends. Weekly meetings with a screening and critical discussion!
2) Re-evaluate those with whom I surround myself. It makes me wonder about myself when I have friends who steal and lie. It's time for me to grow up. My status as a graduate student keeps me from having the money to move on to some more adult things, but I can certainly remove myself from the endless parties of early 20somethings. Reconnect with distanced friends who have their lives together, and learn from them.
3) Curb my tongue. I can't believe I let myself turn into a crabby old lady who might get mad at something totally not worth it. I just need to watch what I say, and count to ten before I think I might say something not good.
4) Read more, watch more films, drink less. This one goes along with re-evaluating my social circles. There are a lot of things to do that don't have to involve drinking, and I should be wary of people who can't do anything without alcohol. I don't have to be a hermit because I don't want to be a drunk. I upped my Netflix subscription so I hopefully won't go through days and days of no DVDs to watch. I just have to remind myself not to let them sit around for 4 months. If I haven't tried to watch it by then, I probably don't really want to, and should just send it back!
5) Weed out negativity. Focus on things I like. A good first step is to stop reading the Craigslist Rants and Raves, I think.
6) RELAX! Getting too stressed out makes me clingy in hopes of comfort, grouchy, and likely to run out with questionable friends to drown my worries in a pint glass. I think hitting the gym 3 or 4 times a week will help TREMENDOUSLY, plus I'll feel and look better physically.
I have to stick with it. In short, I just want to be a better person. I'm ready to be an adult.