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meme stolen from ynez

Jan 20, 2008 20:23

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ynez_castillo January 21 2008, 05:53:37 UTC

Are you angry about something? You sound angry.

30cigarettes January 21 2008, 06:13:55 UTC

I think I'm more frustrated than angry. I'm losing my touch.

ynez_castillo January 21 2008, 06:16:56 UTC

I'm sorry.

You can't take it all on, John.

30cigarettes January 21 2008, 06:20:03 UTC

It's nothing to be sorry for.

I'm just...tired. I've been fighting for a long time. Been doing this a long time. And when it seems like nothing ever changes, no battle ever tips the scale in one direction or the other...it's hard sometimes.

ynez_castillo January 21 2008, 06:21:26 UTC

I know it is.

I think that's what life's like for everybody, in a way. Nothing seems to change. No matter what you do.

30cigarettes January 21 2008, 06:27:16 UTC

A constant spiral and the constant effort to keep from going under.

...how are you, these days?

ynez_castillo January 21 2008, 06:28:16 UTC

And sometimes going under. Yeah.

Not so good. Really, really sad.

30cigarettes January 21 2008, 06:34:23 UTC

Anything I can do to help?

I know what it's like, sort of. Feeling sad. Obviously not your specific case. I hate when people act like they know how someone else feels, you never can, s'always different.

ynez_castillo January 21 2008, 06:37:06 UTC

Yes, it is always different.

I have some unfinished business to take care of in your vicinity. I left a restaurant full of ghosts behind when I left England. Wednesday is the fifth anniversary of my husband's death.

30cigarettes January 21 2008, 06:38:48 UTC

You're not alone, are you?

ynez_castillo January 21 2008, 06:39:26 UTC

That's a complicated question.

30cigarettes January 21 2008, 06:47:21 UTC

I suppose it is.

I think more important is: Are you going to be alone on Wednesday? And if yes, do you want to be?

ynez_castillo January 21 2008, 06:51:25 UTC

I don't know if I will be or not.

I think what I want is to get out of Rome for a couple of days. Or a week. Or something. There are some ghosts I need to take care of.

30cigarettes January 21 2008, 06:54:20 UTC

If it's the ones here, you're more than welcome to stay for awhile, you know.

ynez_castillo January 21 2008, 06:57:15 UTC

I know. Thank you, John. For everything.

My head is so muddled right now. I can't think clearly at all.

I wish I knew what I wanted.

ooc: You up for doing this one this week? I need to go to bed soon, but I could start it whenever.

30cigarettes January 21 2008, 07:02:19 UTC

You're welcome.

Let me know when you're flying in, if you're flying in, and I'll meet you at the airport.

Sometimes we aren't meant to know. Sucks but it's true.

ooc: Yep. John's actually one of the louder voices in my head, whenever you want to do one is good with me. :D

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