Maybe (TRC, Kurogane x Fai, #11)
Title: Maybe
Author: vio55
Pairing: Kurogane x Fai D. Flowright
Fandom: Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE
Theme: #11 - life after death; cry
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Maybe
"I don't want to die," Fai says, holding on tightly to Kurogane's wrist, ignoring the blood moving from the ninja's arm to his own. It's warm and inviting and it's his only salvation, his only way to continute living.
"I'd hope that's not the case anymore," Kurogane replies harshly. He feels Fai's mouth on his wrist, and he doesn't wince from the pain and simply looks away, knowing that this is for the best, that he's doing the right thing by giving his blood away to the mage.
"That's not quite what I meant, Kuro-puu."
"Then what do you mean? Start making sense, you idiot magician."
"If I die, my brother, the real Fai, will just be waiting for me in the next life. I'm sure of it," Fai says. "And then, I still don't want to live, either, because he's still here in my heart and in my mind, still haunting me, even if he's finally passed on peacefully and I just... I just can't win, Kuro-sama." He stops and drinks the remaining blood flowing from Kurogane's wrists, and he disregards what falls to the ground.
Kurogane's eyes soften, and says seriously, "Now that the feather from him is gone, he's free, and he's moved on. Don't you think he'd be grateful for that, and don't you think he'd be grateful that you tried for so long to save him?"
"Maybe..."
Fai thinks that, even if he had endured so much for his brother, there's still a possibility that his brother will be furious for him failing in the end, and that even if the feather has disappeared from his broken and malnourished body, it doesn't mean that he's forgiven everyone and everything that ruined him and the life he barely got to live. Fai doesn't say anything more, knowing that Kurogane can't understand.
Author: vio55
Pairing: Kurogane x Fai D. Flowright
Fandom: Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE
Theme: #11 - life after death; cry
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Maybe
"I don't want to die," Fai says, holding on tightly to Kurogane's wrist, ignoring the blood moving from the ninja's arm to his own. It's warm and inviting and it's his only salvation, his only way to continute living.
"I'd hope that's not the case anymore," Kurogane replies harshly. He feels Fai's mouth on his wrist, and he doesn't wince from the pain and simply looks away, knowing that this is for the best, that he's doing the right thing by giving his blood away to the mage.
"That's not quite what I meant, Kuro-puu."
"Then what do you mean? Start making sense, you idiot magician."
"If I die, my brother, the real Fai, will just be waiting for me in the next life. I'm sure of it," Fai says. "And then, I still don't want to live, either, because he's still here in my heart and in my mind, still haunting me, even if he's finally passed on peacefully and I just... I just can't win, Kuro-sama." He stops and drinks the remaining blood flowing from Kurogane's wrists, and he disregards what falls to the ground.
Kurogane's eyes soften, and says seriously, "Now that the feather from him is gone, he's free, and he's moved on. Don't you think he'd be grateful for that, and don't you think he'd be grateful that you tried for so long to save him?"
"Maybe..."
Fai thinks that, even if he had endured so much for his brother, there's still a possibility that his brother will be furious for him failing in the end, and that even if the feather has disappeared from his broken and malnourished body, it doesn't mean that he's forgiven everyone and everything that ruined him and the life he barely got to live. Fai doesn't say anything more, knowing that Kurogane can't understand.