Title: Prevarications
Author/Artist: vio55
Character(s)/Pairing(s): Satoshi Hiwatari, mentions of Daisuke Niwa, Krad, Dark Mousy, and Kei Hiwatari
Fandom: D.N.Angel
Theme: Country // #5 - i wanna talk about me
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Prevarications
Satoshi had been told that he tells lies that make people happy, but he finds that very hard to believe.
Still, he tries to understand, because the words were spoken by a pure, innocent angel, so they must have some truth to them.
When Krad tries to take control of Satoshi's mind and his heart and his body, he fights against it with all that he is.
"I am not you! I will never be you, so leave me alone!"
But he does not feel like himself at all afterward.
When the father who adopted Satoshi tells him he's not trying hard enough to capture Dark and lift the Hikari family curse, he denies it.
"I am, Father, but things like this take time. It'll be all right in the end. I promise."
But the next time he sees the phantom thief he doesn't try to figure out a strategy, a plan, and ending to his destiny.
When Daisuke says that he doesn't want to see Satoshi hurt, Satoshi tries to sound sincerely grateful.
"Thank you, Daisuke. You really saved me back there. I don't want to think about what would have happened if you weren't here."
But he finds himself thinking of neverending darkness and hearts that don't deserve to be beating, so they stop beating.
When Satoshi tells himself anything at all, he tries to think of something to say to chase it all away, because he's tired and broken and close to giving up.
"I am, I am, I am!"
He doesn't know what he's truly trying to convey with his words, but they must be lies, and they don't feel better to tell.