the ocean breaths salty

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i just go back from a break from standing watch. i went out to the weather deck which is exposed to the elements on all sides, its also our smoking area... haha smokers. its quite windy and drizzly to day and both of them are very cold. but i sat out there, feeling the water on my face, and the wind chill my entire body... i was shaking all over. i breathed in the air and smelt the salty air and the salty sea. it is very calming to go out on a night by yourself to smell the ocean and the air. i love the smell and i couldnt live without it. i wouldnt give it up for anything. it brings back fond memories of montauk. fond memories of old times, of fishing, pulling traps, beach with family. i think ill do it again when im off watch :)

i cant wait till monday to continue on with my plan, and to find out if it works... hehe. i have done nothing wrong so i shouldnt assume the worst. i only made a mistake, a mistake i thought was the correct action at the time. now after looking back i relize it to be a mistake, i will appologize for it, and hope for the best when i ask a question. but to monday i wait.

work = suck

apartment is only 22 days away, and then a nice 8 or so day break. you guys are welcome to visit whenever you want. im going to try to get my apartment all networked and stuff so i may... mostlikely... alright, i will be needing help on that. that way i can have a lan house... it will be fun times! woo! yall can drive 5 hrs to lan... yes!