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so0o... if i have to get 1 more surgery im going to kill myself.. now this is heart #3 like jesus what the fuckk is going on? can you stop and maybe it'll fix on its own? but how many diseases you know get better when there not treated.ehh i never said i was right i just hate having surgery ;[ its not fun!
so today me and bj went to the cemetary bc it was my grampas birthday ii love him so0 much and i miss him maaann...
but on a better note..lol WHATS WITH ALL THE RUBBING!!! i have a little DILEMMA!now me and him have been friends FOREVER ii mean FOREVER!! well for as long as i can remember but i also remember that when i was 10 i started to have a crush him yes i was 10 SICCK i know but yes it started then, and then when i was 16 that crush turned into *feelings*, STUPID i know but now im going to be 19 and its getting worse!.. now let me just give you a little backround hes my cousins bestfriend and was always around and was always there for me, and IS always there for me, and i ALWAYS hang out with my cousins because we're extremely close and ii love that so their friends are my friends, and my friends are there friends we all hang out end of story.s0 anyways for this exercise i will call him *cupid* yes... now cupid and i having known eachother for myyy whole life..lol is infact alot older than i.. well after all my cousins are older than me, but its weird because no one notices that im that young EVER..i dont know we just all fit...so0 i hang out with my cousins alot as every1 knows and cupid infact is always there its like we're 1 big package deal thats the best explanation i can come up with... but its weird he'll say we're almost like family and then he goes on with this other stuff, well be4 i went away to college i seen cupid atleast once every 2 weeks, and now that i went away to college ii BARELY ever see him, but lately like i seen him in the middle of september and chilled and then i seen him again like middle of november and we chilled with everyone ya know, and we wer out andd he did this thing.. he RUBBED HIMSELF on me((yess you know what REGION im talking about!))and then gave me a kiss on the cheak.oh hes a very affectionate, loving, caring, touchy feely guy..F.Y.I..so0 anyways this last time he was like you NEEd to chill more, i never see you anymore, and i was like ;[ i know we talk like once a week if we're lucky we're kinda busy i guess?.. so0 yes he RUBS himself on mE!.. and i dont know what to do with it?.. is it like SEXUAL? or is it him just adjusting himself on me? like WHAT THE HELL?! could some1 help me.. like i seen him last night ( BIG CHEESE ) and we chilled for a while with every1 but he infact did the RUBBING thing again on me?!.. i was confused... we wer making fun of phils girlfriend because her boobs hang out of everything and there nasty (eeekk) and we wer like in eachothers faces i guess making fun of her and YES we wer really close and then he RUBBED himself on ME! and the time before that we wer making fun of her boobs again lol (its that serious) and he was like on the other side of the table and he managed to get over to my side and RUB HIMSELF ON ME?! ii dont knoww? WHAT TH EHELL IS IT!!!!! Does he secretly have feelings for me to? because oh0h man that would just be FANTASTIC because i've been in love with him since i was 10~..lol but knowing my luck thats not the case..
<3 tRaCy
i wonder whats on ur mind, they say sometimes love is blind...
so today me and bj went to the cemetary bc it was my grampas birthday ii love him so0 much and i miss him maaann...
but on a better note..lol WHATS WITH ALL THE RUBBING!!! i have a little DILEMMA!now me and him have been friends FOREVER ii mean FOREVER!! well for as long as i can remember but i also remember that when i was 10 i started to have a crush him yes i was 10 SICCK i know but yes it started then, and then when i was 16 that crush turned into *feelings*, STUPID i know but now im going to be 19 and its getting worse!.. now let me just give you a little backround hes my cousins bestfriend and was always around and was always there for me, and IS always there for me, and i ALWAYS hang out with my cousins because we're extremely close and ii love that so their friends are my friends, and my friends are there friends we all hang out end of story.s0 anyways for this exercise i will call him *cupid* yes... now cupid and i having known eachother for myyy whole life..lol is infact alot older than i.. well after all my cousins are older than me, but its weird because no one notices that im that young EVER..i dont know we just all fit...so0 i hang out with my cousins alot as every1 knows and cupid infact is always there its like we're 1 big package deal thats the best explanation i can come up with... but its weird he'll say we're almost like family and then he goes on with this other stuff, well be4 i went away to college i seen cupid atleast once every 2 weeks, and now that i went away to college ii BARELY ever see him, but lately like i seen him in the middle of september and chilled and then i seen him again like middle of november and we chilled with everyone ya know, and we wer out andd he did this thing.. he RUBBED HIMSELF on me((yess you know what REGION im talking about!))and then gave me a kiss on the cheak.oh hes a very affectionate, loving, caring, touchy feely guy..F.Y.I..so0 anyways this last time he was like you NEEd to chill more, i never see you anymore, and i was like ;[ i know we talk like once a week if we're lucky we're kinda busy i guess?.. so0 yes he RUBS himself on mE!.. and i dont know what to do with it?.. is it like SEXUAL? or is it him just adjusting himself on me? like WHAT THE HELL?! could some1 help me.. like i seen him last night ( BIG CHEESE ) and we chilled for a while with every1 but he infact did the RUBBING thing again on me?!.. i was confused... we wer making fun of phils girlfriend because her boobs hang out of everything and there nasty (eeekk) and we wer like in eachothers faces i guess making fun of her and YES we wer really close and then he RUBBED himself on ME! and the time before that we wer making fun of her boobs again lol (its that serious) and he was like on the other side of the table and he managed to get over to my side and RUB HIMSELF ON ME?! ii dont knoww? WHAT TH EHELL IS IT!!!!! Does he secretly have feelings for me to? because oh0h man that would just be FANTASTIC because i've been in love with him since i was 10~..lol but knowing my luck thats not the case..
<3 tRaCy
i wonder whats on ur mind, they say sometimes love is blind...