Today was my day off.  It didn't go so well.  I basically cried all day while pretending to be a functioning member of society.

I went to the hospital to see my IUFD mom( ... )

 J read my LJ. He sent me a message ( Sigh. This has stared at me for a week. It's time to let it go. )

 Well, again, I suppose I should post the most basic details of my newest adventure.
I begin work on Monday, as an LPN, at the only place I applied, (really sdunn711 did the actual work of the applying part).  Bxxxxxxxx was the hospital I wanted to work for, because it's only minutes from my house and that matters to me- big time!  I hate a long commute.   ( Read more... )

For only the second time, during this introspective year in Birmingham, I walked the 150 feet to the beautiful park across from the Oxmoor Box. 
I have followed some wonderful advice, to pick an easy read, to try to get back into that once, so beloved, hobby and book addiction.  And so, I've chosen. 
I got into bed early last night (not hard, after ( Read more... )

{SORRY I COULDN'T GET THIS BEHIND A CUT.  DAMN, I STILL STRUGGLE WITH THAT!}
Two problems here with the meme thingy; first, I talk too much and (for those of you who know me in real life- try not to laugh SO hard) I CAN'T REMEMBER SHIT.  One of the reasons I can't have kids- I would SO be one of the parents who left the kid to die in the car as I ( Read more... )

I didn't hear about the job today.  
And, well, I just finished my bag of Ghirardelli Chocolate chips.
Why is this remarkable?  
Well it's not really, but this is what one does with no job and a laptop- post about nothing.  And I'm way funnier than Jerry Seinfeld, by the way.

I comment about the end of this bag of comforting secret stash, because I ( Read more... )

 It is supposed to be a day to rejoice and get things DONE ( Read more... )

 I'm reposting this post from when I found out my Grandma had cancer; I went to see her for Thanksgiving  and she passed away January 7th.  I'm reposting because I'm sad, and this post makes me think of life and change and the passing of time and how things will get better because life just keeps moving, "flowing toward the ocean like a drop of ( Read more... )

This is a terrible idea.  I need to get to bed, I have a clinical in the morning.
But it's easy to find distractions away from a lonely bed.
And a lonely apartment.
I left for class early this morning.  It was boring.  We listened to a career counselor talk about how we have to wear hose to an interview no matter what.  And that we should put all the ( Read more... )

I want to add to my last post,
Yes, there was drama between J and I.  We are deeply passionate people.
The term drama can sometimes imply unnecessary emotional stuff though, and that’s not accurate in this instance. The things we are feeling aren’t unnecessary. 
I learned something about my lover that I hadn’t previously understood. He said something ( Read more... )