Wow, just found this. I guess it explains why you haven't responded to any of my polite yahoo messages or e-mails. You painted this picture of being a friend, but I've tried repeatedly to reach out, only to get silence in return. I guess I should read your LJ, since you're going to throw speculation about me out there for everyone else to read.
You've got it wrong though Maura, so I'd like to set your fiction straight just a little bit. It will be interesting to see if you delete this comment, as this truth doesn't get much acknowledgement.
I got over the fact that you weren't going to marry me a long time ago. I had moved past that. What I wanted was the support you committed to me when I COMMITTED TO SUPPORT YOU THROUGH SCHOOL.
How convenient that you do everything you can to push me away while you ran to other people in the final weeks of your school. You got what you wanted, and I walked away feeling the fool, once again, for believing that someone would could actually honor a commitment to another human being.
You got what you wanted. Support from me through school. How many times did I console you in the middle of the night, because you were balling your eyes out about the stress of school? How many times did I put food in front of you, which is what it would take to get you to eat.
Life with you was incredibly difficult during that time, but I thought once you got what you dreamed of for 16 years that you'd honor the commitment you DID MAKE TO ME. To provide some similar support so I could follow my dream.
That wasn't part of your plan though, as in the weeks before your graduation you pushed me away as you prepared to move on. And you did. Congratulations. You got what you wanted, and really haven't spoken to me sense. I learned of your lies, running off to Atlanta to see someone behind my back when you weren't a sniveling, broken fetal position bound nervous wreck from school. You left me in that position, more than once, to go off and play.
I learned how to find peace alone, so thanks for that. And I don't know what the hell Colin THINKS he knows, as I saw him briefly at Keith's party, but that was the only time THIS YEAR.
I've concluded that all the elders, healers, priests, etc. in the pagan community are basically full of shit, for they, like you, aren't there when people need you the most. You were my angel of death, and I will live the rest of my days alone, for in taking what you did form me you killed my hope for anything with anyone.
These days I interact with customers, because that's where my check comes from. I have to survive, but people, well they've demonstrated to me that they're really no damn good.
What I wanted was what I gave you. A shoulder to lean on, words of encouragement, help, to get through school. I needed it as much as you did. I patiently waited, and then, once you got what you wanted, you were gone.
You've got it wrong though Maura, so I'd like to set your fiction straight just a little bit. It will be interesting to see if you delete this comment, as this truth doesn't get much acknowledgement.
I got over the fact that you weren't going to marry me a long time ago. I had moved past that. What I wanted was the support you committed to me when I COMMITTED TO SUPPORT YOU THROUGH SCHOOL.
How convenient that you do everything you can to push me away while you ran to other people in the final weeks of your school. You got what you wanted, and I walked away feeling the fool, once again, for believing that someone would could actually honor a commitment to another human being.
You got what you wanted. Support from me through school. How many times did I console you in the middle of the night, because you were balling your eyes out about the stress of school? How many times did I put food in front of you, which is what it would take to get you to eat.
Life with you was incredibly difficult during that time, but I thought once you got what you dreamed of for 16 years that you'd honor the commitment you DID MAKE TO ME. To provide some similar support so I could follow my dream.
That wasn't part of your plan though, as in the weeks before your graduation you pushed me away as you prepared to move on. And you did. Congratulations. You got what you wanted, and really haven't spoken to me sense. I learned of your lies, running off to Atlanta to see someone behind my back when you weren't a sniveling, broken fetal position bound nervous wreck from school. You left me in that position, more than once, to go off and play.
I learned how to find peace alone, so thanks for that. And I don't know what the hell Colin THINKS he knows, as I saw him briefly at Keith's party, but that was the only time THIS YEAR.
I've concluded that all the elders, healers, priests, etc. in the pagan community are basically full of shit, for they, like you, aren't there when people need you the most. You were my angel of death, and I will live the rest of my days alone, for in taking what you did form me you killed my hope for anything with anyone.
These days I interact with customers, because that's where my check comes from. I have to survive, but people, well they've demonstrated to me that they're really no damn good.
What I wanted was what I gave you. A shoulder to lean on, words of encouragement, help, to get through school. I needed it as much as you did. I patiently waited, and then, once you got what you wanted, you were gone.
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