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Well, it certainly has been a long time since i've last updated. Been thinking alot lately about life, and where its going, the direction im taking and what not. It's so confusing being in a phase of my life where things are constantly changing. Don't get me wrong, I'm not afraid of change, heck, its even good for me in most cases...but it's like that once I went to college and espeically since i've gotten into my major of architecture that the chapter in my life that I called high school is closed, and gone from sight. I've spent so much of my time doing architecture stuff, forming new relationships that in the middle of all that it seems that I've drifted away from old friendships. Its like some people coming into our lives for a reason, for a particular staage of our lives. Which really bugs me b/c i thought that the close friends i graduated with would always be close to me. We were told u guys wont stay close like this, things change and people change. But we told ourselves it would never happen to us, our friendships were much too strong. I'm not saying that we never talk anymore, b/c that's not true...but it's impossible to say that nothing has changed between us. I feel like i'm moving on, and it feels so weird. it feels weird not seein them daily, not talking to them daily...but i guess that's just part of growing up. College is where u are suppose to find your best friends, and I think that i've actually found some great people that i meet in my architecture studio......but i know that no matter what happens from the friendships in the past i'll never EVER forget those memories.....some of the best times of my life.
As for relationships...that's another puzzling thing in my life right now. It appears I'm still hanging onto the past...and seeking the future all at the same time. And I dont know which was to go and what to do about it all. It worries me so much that I have passed a perfect relationship up because i was too scared of what would come out of it, or it would be too hard to make it work...... But, while i've been at college this year, i've met someone else. He's great, and I dont know what to do about it. I like it, i like him alot....but i feel if i go into this..... i'm leaving something behind that i never got the chance to find out if it would work....and no matter what happens in my life, that will always be in the back of my mind. But, i'm happy when i'm with this guy, i'm happy when i'm around him, and i feel that i can be myself and he likes that...and i like that. But, deep down, i know that i'm always gonna wonder what could have been in the past...and i know that i need to stop looking back on the past and move on with my life. Enjoy college life basically.
Anyway, that's about all I have to say. Im not sure that anyone is reading any of this...but if u are, thanks, i appreciate the thought and concern! Talk to you all later.
As for relationships...that's another puzzling thing in my life right now. It appears I'm still hanging onto the past...and seeking the future all at the same time. And I dont know which was to go and what to do about it all. It worries me so much that I have passed a perfect relationship up because i was too scared of what would come out of it, or it would be too hard to make it work...... But, while i've been at college this year, i've met someone else. He's great, and I dont know what to do about it. I like it, i like him alot....but i feel if i go into this..... i'm leaving something behind that i never got the chance to find out if it would work....and no matter what happens in my life, that will always be in the back of my mind. But, i'm happy when i'm with this guy, i'm happy when i'm around him, and i feel that i can be myself and he likes that...and i like that. But, deep down, i know that i'm always gonna wonder what could have been in the past...and i know that i need to stop looking back on the past and move on with my life. Enjoy college life basically.
Anyway, that's about all I have to say. Im not sure that anyone is reading any of this...but if u are, thanks, i appreciate the thought and concern! Talk to you all later.