Hmmmm
Trying to gauge how I'm feeling these days.
I'd definitely say I'm doing better than I was a few weeks ago. I'm working, involved in scouting, and I keep myself busy with some healthy hobbies.
As much as I enjoyed it, I'm no longer drinking. It put me in a bad spot, and I don't see any other way to avoid that kind of situation.
I don't really feel the need to go into that story any further, so I feel fine just leaving it at that.
My son is awesome, and you can see him learning every time you look at the guy. It's very exciting.
It unfortunately looks as if we'll be going full steam ahead with the divorce. There's no saving it, and quite frankly, I'm over it.
I know I may have indicated being over it previously, but understand that it was my only way of staying sane. I can honestly and comfortably say that I am done with her. I'm not planning on running on my way to find someone else to be with or anything like that. I'm just through with her.
While I'm on the topic, I've actually been a little scared of the possibilities of me being able to get into a new relationship. I'm afraid the fact that I'm 24 and I have a kid will scare a people off. It isn't something that I've let occupy too much time in my head, but bounced around long enough to make me worry. I dunno. I suppose I could look at it as helping to make sure I end up with someone who likes kids and is okay with all of that. . . . . . .I don't know where I'm going with this, exactly. I'm not looking to get into anything too serious right now, and it the same time I'm not looking for someone to just fuck around with. If I do any of that it will only screw me up. So I guess what I'd like to do be able to do is date, but I think that just brings me back to my initial fear. I don't know if anyone would be comfortable just casually dating some guy who has a kid.
Maybe I need to ride the single train a while longer. . . . . . . . .and maybe I need to pose my situation as if it's my own decision. . . . . . . .so I don't feel like that much of a loser.
:p
It's not all that bad right now. Work has provided a good healthy distraction, and it's going well. It's kinda nice that my shifts early on in the week don't start until 10:45, so I can stay up later and lazy out a bit in the morning. It's good times.
Sooooo, yeah.
Bed time for me.
LOVE AND PEACE!
I'd definitely say I'm doing better than I was a few weeks ago. I'm working, involved in scouting, and I keep myself busy with some healthy hobbies.
As much as I enjoyed it, I'm no longer drinking. It put me in a bad spot, and I don't see any other way to avoid that kind of situation.
I don't really feel the need to go into that story any further, so I feel fine just leaving it at that.
My son is awesome, and you can see him learning every time you look at the guy. It's very exciting.
It unfortunately looks as if we'll be going full steam ahead with the divorce. There's no saving it, and quite frankly, I'm over it.
I know I may have indicated being over it previously, but understand that it was my only way of staying sane. I can honestly and comfortably say that I am done with her. I'm not planning on running on my way to find someone else to be with or anything like that. I'm just through with her.
While I'm on the topic, I've actually been a little scared of the possibilities of me being able to get into a new relationship. I'm afraid the fact that I'm 24 and I have a kid will scare a people off. It isn't something that I've let occupy too much time in my head, but bounced around long enough to make me worry. I dunno. I suppose I could look at it as helping to make sure I end up with someone who likes kids and is okay with all of that. . . . . . .I don't know where I'm going with this, exactly. I'm not looking to get into anything too serious right now, and it the same time I'm not looking for someone to just fuck around with. If I do any of that it will only screw me up. So I guess what I'd like to do be able to do is date, but I think that just brings me back to my initial fear. I don't know if anyone would be comfortable just casually dating some guy who has a kid.
Maybe I need to ride the single train a while longer. . . . . . . . .and maybe I need to pose my situation as if it's my own decision. . . . . . . .so I don't feel like that much of a loser.
:p
It's not all that bad right now. Work has provided a good healthy distraction, and it's going well. It's kinda nice that my shifts early on in the week don't start until 10:45, so I can stay up later and lazy out a bit in the morning. It's good times.
Sooooo, yeah.
Bed time for me.
LOVE AND PEACE!