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Title: Missed Chances
Rated: NC-17
Chapter: 4
Pairing: Ryan MillerxZdeno Chara
chapter 1 / chapter 2 / chapter 3
The lights of the city passed by, at a quick pace. Which I could only guess was from the way Zdeno was driving, but I could always be wrong. His one hand clutched him, while the other stayed on the steering wheel. I could not believe that I had given in that easily, I was hoping that maybe I would last out longer than what I did. But like I heard so many people say, you never stay angry, upset, or distance yourself from anyone for all that long.
“What are you thinking about?” he asked, turning his head slightly to look at me out of the corner of his eye. A blush crept to my cheeks, causing me to duck my head and my free hand fiddled with the seat belt. “Just things that people have told me.” I managed in a meek voice, I could not help it. I was not expecting to be driving in Boston with the man, who I had just admitted that I was in love with.
I could see him raise and eyebrow, and have a slightly confused look on his face. Since the answer I gave him was not really and answer, just a statement that I was thinking of something. His thumb lightly stroked the top of my hand, it felt good, even this light touch set my skin ablaze. The blush that was starting to fade from the cheeks, came back quickly at the touch. Shifting in my seat, the lights started to fade as we left the city. The reason why I was shifting was from nerves, I was nervous as hell. And for a good reason in my eyes.
Feeling a soft squeeze to my hand, I looked at him and he gave me a soft smile. “Its okay Ryan, you know I would never hurt you.” He said his hand letting go of mine, much to my dismay. And he brushed his finger tips across my cheek, and pushed back what hair was in my face, behind my ear. The touch caused a shiver to go down my spine, as I leaned in towards the touch.
But his hand did not res there for long, I could hear the car slowing down to a stop. I had not realized I closed my eyes at his touch, and when I opened them, I looked out of the windshield and towards a house. That was really, compared to mine, looked to be half of the size. But then again, it could be a lot bigger than from what it looked like from the outside.
Hearing his door open, I quickly got out of the car to follow him. I could hear him chuckling as he came over by me. Zdeno’s one arm wrapped around my back pulling me close to him, while he kissed my forehead as he did this. “Zee, stop it.” I said quickly the blush back, but I could not help but smile and rest my head on what part of his shoulder I could reach. He then pulled me towards his home, keeping my pressed close to his body.
A smile ghosted over my lips as I leaned in closer, reaching up closer I placed soft kisses to what skin was exposed at the base of his neck. Hearing the soft moan escape his lips, as we got closer to the front door. I shifted to where I was now standing in front of him, arms wrapped around his neck, reaching up to lightly nip, and kiss his neck. “Ryan…” Zdeno started, I could hear him rummaging through his pocket for the keys to his house. “Fuck, Ryan.” He snapped as I nipped at the skin over his collar bone.
I smiled as I listened to him, his breathing hitched and quicken. As mine did the same, after a couple of minutes, Zdeno had managed to get the key’s out and unlock the door. Kissing and ravishing at his neck, I would feel his arms wrap around me, lifting me up so I had better access. From what I would tell, he did mainly to get us in the house and maybe in another room. But I was not paying attention, with the better access to his neck, I sucked on the hollow there. My eyes closed, grazing his skin with my teeth, I could hear his breathing get fast.
Gasping as I was pressed down into something, my mouth unattached itself from his neck. Looking around for a few second, I finally realized where we were. “God Ryan, I swear…” He started, his voice once more an octave lower than normal, and rough from his short, shallow breaths. “Next time, we might not back it pass the couch.”
As I thought over his last statement, I could not help but smile, it would not be a bad idea. But we were already in his room….. My thoughts were interpreted as I felt his lips on my neck. Kissing, and sucking on various parts of the skin there. His hands working down my chest, once they got to the hem of my shirt, he pulled up. Bring my shirt up with him as he raised his hands, leaving my neck he started leaving a trail of kisses from my navel up my chest.
I arched into his touches, and gasped as his teeth grazed one of my nipples. Pinching the other one, while he then licked and sucked on one, before turning his attention to the other once. “Zee….” I gasped, as he pulled my shirt the rest of the way up. My hands scrambled against his chest, undoing the buttons on his shirt, when I finally got it off him. Zdeno’s lips caught mine, kissing my deeply, his tongue invading my mouth.
My arms wrapped around his neck, holding him there as our tongues danced together. Moaning into his mouth, my eyes closed as my body arched up into his, wanting to be closer to him. His hands traveled won my body once more, stopping as they reach my hips. Zdeno pulled away from the kiss, the smile on his face, I could of just died right there from it.
Fuck, I could not take it anymore, I needed him more than anything right now, and he was just teasing me. His hips slowly grinding against mine, his lips now nipping and sucking my ear lobe. My hands finally let go from around his neck, and started to rub against his chest. Soft moans and whimpers escaped my lips, causing him to continue what he was doing. Knowing that I could, and would not do anything to stop him, I was enjoying this was the main reason why I would not stop him.
“Zee… fuck Zee I’m….” I started before his lips caught mine, I could not finish what I was saying. “You sure you want this?” Zdeno asked, after pulling away, his hands still holding my hips down as he asked the question. I looked at him, wondering why he would ask such a question like that. But I did not debate on the question all that long, giving him a soft smile I nodded my head. My hands, which were still on his chest, traveled down his body and once they got to his waist line. I undid the button, and slowly unzipped them.
My lips were placing kisses on his jaw, and traveling down his neck again. Licking, and sucking on the spot I found earlier that I found out made him moan. I nipped at it now, hearing the moan that escaped his lips, caused me to smile. I pushed down his pants, along with this boxers, my hands now gripping him. His hands then started to move, undoing my pants, before taking them and my boxers off in one swift motion.
He pulled up, and away from me, letting out a straggled moan as I lost my grip on him, I propped myself up on my elbows. Looking over him, I licked my lips, finally I looked up and into those soft green eyes. That were now dark, and full of lust, I could not help but shiver under his gaze. “Zee, I need you now.” I finally managed to say, reaching out for him. As I got closer to him, I could feel his erection brushing against mine, cause a low moan to escape both of our mouths at the same time.
Zdeno’s one hand reached pass me, and towards the nightstand next to the bed. Opening the draw he pulled out a small bottle, and a package. I watched him, while my hands traveled up and down his chest, waiting for what I knew was to come. My eyes closed, I felt him kiss my neck, “I’ll make sure nothing ever happens to you again Ryan. I promise, no one will ever hurt you again.” He murmured against my neck, as he pressed a lubed finger against my opening.
As he slowly pushed his finger in, I let out a startled gasp, while pushing down on his finger. My hands now gripped his shoulders, as I threw my head back letting out a loud moan. I pressed down against him again, as he entered a second finger and began scissoring them back and forth, every once and a while brushing my prostate causing me to moan even louder than before. “Zee, please Zee..” I managed to say as he stuck a third finger in. “You sure that your ready?” he asked once more, “I’ll understand if your not.”
I let out a low groan as he asked me again. “I’m sure Zee… Please don’t make me wait.” I finally said, whimpering as he removed his fingers. Hearing the ripping open of a package, Zdeno then leaned down and placed soft gentle kisses on my lips, and on my jaw line. “If you say so.” Zdeno mumbled against my neck, I could feel him line himself up. Slowly I could feel him enter me, I threw my head back, biting my lower lip as pain shot through my lower back.
Tears slowly caressed down my cheeks, as he pressed in farther, but going slowly. I felt kisses being placed on my cheeks, and soft words of reassurance being whispered into my ear. I let out a deep breath as he stopped not noticing that I was holding my breath, now realizing that I was crying, my lower lips was bleeding from where I bit it, and my hands clutched the sheets below me.
“Ryan, I love you.” He murmured in my ear, kissing the side of my face, his left thumb caressing my cheek brushing the tears away. “I’m s…….” I had let him only get far enough this this statement before I stopped him. Shaking my head, I kissed him deeply, opening my mouth to lick at his lips. “Please, don’t say that. Its…” I started flinching a bit as I shifted. “I wanted this.” I finished, as my body got use to the feel of him.
Kissing him deeply once more, I wanted to show him I meant this, and that I did love him. But I was not able to say those exact words, after a couple minutes that seemed like forever, I ground my hips against his. Causing a few gasp and moans from Zdeno, it hurt for a bit as I moved, but the pleasure that I was getting as his erection brushed my prostate several time. “Move please, Zee I need you to move.” I growled towards him, my eyes filled with lust and love.
My hands now gripped his shoulders, while my legs wrapped around his waist. As he started to thrust slowly at first, and slowly picking up speed as I met Zdeno’s every thrust. Letting out a straggled moan, my body arched into his, I could hear him say stuff in a language I did not know. But it sounded like Slovakian, a language I heard some other hockey players use. “Fuck Zee…” I moaned, my right hand jerking myself off, as my other arm wrapped around his neck and pull him in for a kiss.
I cried out as I got closer, my hand picking up speed as he sucked on my neck. He then bit down, lightly at first applying pressure every little bit. Groaning as I felt his teeth on my skin, I could not hold back any longer, I needed to release soon. Hearing my groan, he placed a soft, yet firm kiss at the corner of my mouth. “Come for me Ryan…” Zdeno purred in my ear, his voice low, and full of lust. That was it, the sound of his voice caused me to release against our stomachs.
My body tensed around him, muscles clenching tightly, I heard him let out a startled moan before he thrust in once more releasing deep inside me. His forehead resting against mine, our breathing both quick and shallow, pull kissed my nose before kissing my lips. While we were kissing, he pulled out, which caused a groan to escape my lips.
Laying down next to me, Zdeno wrapped his arms around me, pulling me in close to him. Taking in a deep breath as my nose brushed his shoulder, I looked up at him and my gaze stopped on his cheek. I had just remembered what happened earlier that night to cause it. “Remind me tomorrow I have to hurt Kaleta.” I murmured against his shoulder, my free hand that Zdeno did not hold in his, brushed across the bruises. A low chuckle came from deep within in Zdeno’s chest.
“I will if I remember, love.” Zdeno said, kissing my forehead now. “For now, lets just lay here.” He then said, his eyes closed as he pulled a blanket over us. Letting out a deep sigh, I nuzzled his shoulder. ‘Good night, love.’ I thought, a smile on my lips as I closed my eyes.