i see the stars and i think of you
so this is my declaration ...or something ....whatever
obviously this subject is wayy past old...for marni im sure, and everyone else i've managed to bug over the past 6 months, but for me its as if i met her for the first time yesterday and im still in awe of her, like i just met the perfect girl, and i cant wait to get to kno her..thats what it feels like for me, no matter how many mistakes i've made or how many dumb things i said.i kno in my heart shes unbelievable and i'll for sure never find another Marni again.. i see her and time stands still...she can make the gloomiest day golden, and put a smile on my face on the worst day of my life. when im with her i feel like nothing else matters. i could spend days just sitting with her talking, why im writing this down i really dont have an answer for that. probably because if i didnt do this right now i'd ..i dont kno why im doing this, im hoping this will be the final time i have to do this..i really dont kno why im doing this, no one will read it but whatever..as i digress.i'v been seeing movies lately about people who graduate high school and talk about "the one that got away" while they were there.... well shes defintly "the one that got away" from me in my high school. ...i just took a 2 hour break from writing this, now i start again, i feel very vulnerable..i worry about myself sometimes. it feels like im too hard on myself, but then again who knows.. sometimes i feel like theres somethign wrong, other times i feel like im jut being childish and blowing it out of proportion, but im scared now.. for the last 6 months my purpose for waking up was knowing that i would see her, now that shes leaving..what do i have now?? her leaving is like an ending to a story.. good in a way where i can finally try to get my head back on strait, yet very bad because she wont be there when i need her. her leaving is a heh... "beautiful tragedy" as i look over this, i realize how strange this all sounds..i'v even wierded out myself, but whatevr whats said is said and its the truth so why should i say anything but that here. this is my goodbye to you, my star
obviously this subject is wayy past old...for marni im sure, and everyone else i've managed to bug over the past 6 months, but for me its as if i met her for the first time yesterday and im still in awe of her, like i just met the perfect girl, and i cant wait to get to kno her..thats what it feels like for me, no matter how many mistakes i've made or how many dumb things i said.i kno in my heart shes unbelievable and i'll for sure never find another Marni again.. i see her and time stands still...she can make the gloomiest day golden, and put a smile on my face on the worst day of my life. when im with her i feel like nothing else matters. i could spend days just sitting with her talking, why im writing this down i really dont have an answer for that. probably because if i didnt do this right now i'd ..i dont kno why im doing this, im hoping this will be the final time i have to do this..i really dont kno why im doing this, no one will read it but whatever..as i digress.i'v been seeing movies lately about people who graduate high school and talk about "the one that got away" while they were there.... well shes defintly "the one that got away" from me in my high school. ...i just took a 2 hour break from writing this, now i start again, i feel very vulnerable..i worry about myself sometimes. it feels like im too hard on myself, but then again who knows.. sometimes i feel like theres somethign wrong, other times i feel like im jut being childish and blowing it out of proportion, but im scared now.. for the last 6 months my purpose for waking up was knowing that i would see her, now that shes leaving..what do i have now?? her leaving is like an ending to a story.. good in a way where i can finally try to get my head back on strait, yet very bad because she wont be there when i need her. her leaving is a heh... "beautiful tragedy" as i look over this, i realize how strange this all sounds..i'v even wierded out myself, but whatevr whats said is said and its the truth so why should i say anything but that here. this is my goodbye to you, my star