as i lie helpless, hopeless
so i went to tashas house for "rummy night" that turned out to be not so much fun at all..got a call from lindsay askign to go somewhere, so i was all for it. went to 84 diner w/ marni, monica, rachel,pete, chris, other random people i just met...2 new guys seemed pretty cool,threw marnis gum wrappers back and forth for a little while, and then i threw a lemon at her shirt. hope the citrus doesnt stain the shirt haha. wasnt the best night for me to meet new people tho. the night was cool overall, i wasnt as upset as everyone thought i was... but marni brought up the same subject w/ me again for the 2nd time, and again didnt really say anything. that is what upset me the most i guess, she brings up whatever i said in here , and says she doesnt know what to say, or what shes talking about, but i'd really like to know what shes seriously feeling. marni if you read this, i'd really like to know exactly what your thinking or feeling or whatever, even if its not in person, comment on this or write an email or something because regardless of what it is its better to kno what your thinking instead of me having to talk with the person i care about so much, and feel like they're holding something back from me. i wish i had somehting more to say, but im used up. just wondering what she's really thinking.