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so. pete told me he dind't love me anymore today. he said he didnt' care anymore. after a summer of telling me that he would never stop loving me. never find another. and then uses the exact opposite reasons to tell me why he doesn't love me. he says i've changed. i havn't. he has. 
he plans on asking this girl out, he says. 
i deleted my myspace
blocked his sn

i never stopped loving him. never. no matter what he believes. anyone who can read my livejournal can see that inever stopped caring, so you know its true. 
i hate that this had to happen 2 days   before college.
i cant stop cry ing
on the phone with megan

but the main thing? is that he doesnt' love me. he doesn't care. a year and a 1/2 was stolen from me...a year and a 1/2 that i was in love, and happy, and now it means nothing, bc he doesn't love. 
i wish i never met him
i wish i could wipe this clean
i love you peter richards
but now i have to let go

your the cruelest mother fucker ive known
so now 
i h ave
to
just
let...
go...

this journal is no longer in effect. from today forward a new one will be in use... indigo0fhonor
i'll set a new link in it tomorrow

i'm done, i'm numb, i never want to hear about pete again. ever. i wish i had never met him, never fallen in love.
telling me he doesn't love me anymore...was the cruelest thing he could have done.
my heart isn't broken anymore
its shattered

night all. hopefully i won't wake up.
-lauren