Michael, The Milky Way, and Zero
I need to pause from the Battle sometimes. There's a scene in 'Michael' where Travolta, the warrior Angel, yells "BATTLE!" and runs into a field to fight with a long horned bull. He's laughing and happy after he smashes into the bull and both are lying in the long grass. I know that feeling. I think every warrior has to love the fight, mostly. But I'm in one of those periods when I need to step away from the field for a time, if I can.
I was driving to LA the other day. It was after 2am and I was in the Central Valley; a hundred miles or so of flat farmland with no city lights. I kept trying to look out the side window at the stars, as they looked specially bright. Finally I had to pull over to look. I drove off the freeway onto a side road, and then onto a dirt road. I got out and saw one of the most incredible night skies I had ever seen. The Milky Way was so visible that I was stunned. I was thinking "there's the spiral arm of our galaxy." I was trying to figure out whether I was looking in towards the center of the galaxy, or out, to the edge. I had no idea. I couldn't take my eyes off it.
Then I started to get spooked. I don't know how it happens, but sometimes this irrational fear grips me. I looked around and saw that I was all alone on a dirt road in the middle of nowhere at 2am. The fact that my car was there, was running, and I could flee in a second was comforting, but I couldn't shake the fear. It was, looking back, comical, struggling between the glory of the Milky Way, and the fear of being alone and vulnerable in a strange place.
I wish I knew why this fear hits me sometimes. It's always when I'm alone and vulnerable, far from aid, usually at night, but not always. More often than not, I don't even think about it. Maybe it's because I'm a city person, and I feel out of my element in great big wide open spaces.
Otherwise.....
Had a good day today. I realized how much I like CAD tools. I spent the day laying out a chip with my new sensor designs. I have one basic design with 560 variations. I did about half of them. Then I went running for an hour. It was one of those runs where you're going faster and harder at the end than at the beginning. Listened to my latest audible.com book: Zero. Great book.
I was driving to LA the other day. It was after 2am and I was in the Central Valley; a hundred miles or so of flat farmland with no city lights. I kept trying to look out the side window at the stars, as they looked specially bright. Finally I had to pull over to look. I drove off the freeway onto a side road, and then onto a dirt road. I got out and saw one of the most incredible night skies I had ever seen. The Milky Way was so visible that I was stunned. I was thinking "there's the spiral arm of our galaxy." I was trying to figure out whether I was looking in towards the center of the galaxy, or out, to the edge. I had no idea. I couldn't take my eyes off it.
Then I started to get spooked. I don't know how it happens, but sometimes this irrational fear grips me. I looked around and saw that I was all alone on a dirt road in the middle of nowhere at 2am. The fact that my car was there, was running, and I could flee in a second was comforting, but I couldn't shake the fear. It was, looking back, comical, struggling between the glory of the Milky Way, and the fear of being alone and vulnerable in a strange place.
I wish I knew why this fear hits me sometimes. It's always when I'm alone and vulnerable, far from aid, usually at night, but not always. More often than not, I don't even think about it. Maybe it's because I'm a city person, and I feel out of my element in great big wide open spaces.
Otherwise.....
Had a good day today. I realized how much I like CAD tools. I spent the day laying out a chip with my new sensor designs. I have one basic design with 560 variations. I did about half of them. Then I went running for an hour. It was one of those runs where you're going faster and harder at the end than at the beginning. Listened to my latest audible.com book: Zero. Great book.