Twenty.

[2am_anatomy]

So we broke up. Needless to say, I was sad at first, but after being out all day I realize that I shouldn't be sad, I should be happy that I don't need to waste anymore time or heartache on someone who in the end just wasn't worth it in the first place. He wasn't ready for another relationship, recently learning I was his first girlfriend since he was 18, and he wasn't even divorced from her yet. Knowing he wasn't divorced yet should have been a clear warning sign, but you live and you learn. I'm honestly glad we're done, he took me for granted, and couldn't show me he loved me. Being in a long distance relationship, communication and the ability to show someone you love them is immensely important and he really couldn't do it. He lied to me way too much and drug his past relationship into ours, always thinking I was going to cheat on him because she did. He was controlling and had to "pre-approve" all my friends I saw, made me stop talking to virtually every guy I knew, always kept tabs on me and made me delete my facebook. NOT someone I should be with. Not someone I want to be with. In the end, I'm just glad I still have all my friends, and I'm glad I'll be able to sleep at night not having to worry about stupid things happening. Now I just want my life back, and I want to be with my friends and family and just forget about him.

ANYWAYS...
I really missed my friends :)



-J :)