Nineteen.
Hi livejournal, I'm not doing too good anymore. I haven't slept in a few days, I think I'm getting sick, and my heart currently hurts. I've decided I'm not moving to New Mexico any time soon, which absolutely breaks my heart; which comes to remind me of another thing I've been doing the past few days, crying. Today was absolutely frustrating and probably the worst day of my entire life. I feel so shot, and so broken; I honestly can't think of any way how to fix how I feel. Guess it's one of those things that people always say "only time!" Everyone knows I'm not too patient of a person, so time can F*** off. Unfortunately, my use of profanity and my absolute repulsion of "taking time" will do me no good. I'm so depressed, I don't even want to move or leave my bed. I'm so hurt beyond any way I could possibly express. I wish I could go further into detail about how I'm feeling but I'll save that for a private entry. I just can't wait until this is over and things are back to normal again. I'm done hurting.
Hoping for a speedy recovery, thanks for listening,
-J.
Hoping for a speedy recovery, thanks for listening,
-J.