ah. it's officially the holidays

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i have now received the "i don't feel well" and won't be joining you for christmas call. sigh. everytime i fuckin' hope too. hope that maybe you'll join us for a celebration. although, really, i guess ic an't be too disturbed. you did make it to one of three this year. you came to thanksgiving.

if i could only ditch the hope, i would be much better.

c'est la vie!