9/22/2004----LJ AWAY FROM THE COMPUTER
One feeling that i notice today that feels almost as good as an orgasm is the feeling of being pampered. I've never realized this, guess cuz pampering comes but every so often. But I realized this and how important my boyfriend is in my life. Today I woke up and took a shower. I was going to wash my hair when my boyfriend did it for me. I can't front although he makes me mad at times & I feel like he doesn't understand me, he still treats me well. not only does he wash my hair but he'll hand wash my underwear , iron my clothes, and make me breakfast. It's no wonder I love him...I'm the laziest bitch ever. Don't get me wrong- I know how to do shit but i'm just sooo lazy :
IE: Yesterday my boyfriend left at 6am to work. I got up at 10am, took a shower, got dressed, went home, went to meet Ericka and it was about 2 or 3 when i finallly decided to eat Mc.D's....mind u I was hungry from 11am. So me always trying to understand myself asked myself the question, why did i make myself wait so long to eat? It didn't even take me 5 seconds to begin to answer; Carlos wasn't around and that was why I hadn't eaten. See when I'm by myself I'm too lazy to care for myself. so i wake up hungry, i won't eat....too lazy and confused to make breakfat or to go outside and buy some. with Carlos around he offers me and makes me food as soon as i get up. and if i'm not really hungry i eat anyways b/c i feel bad if i say no and I know i should eat breakfast so might as well.
All that and the washing the hair its no wonder i've been all lovey dovey with him. it's so sickening to. if i was anoutsider lookign at us-i'd puke...lol....but we both laugh at this and say anyone would say we just started going out when it's really been 3 offivial years and 7 total...but i'm happy nad thank God that it still can feel like that.