bad mood gone
So today I had a grad school meltdown. Not gonna go into it cause I don't want to think about it anymore, but it was a pretty big freak-out. I think the first two weeks back have been pretty overwhelming and exhausting and the to-do list ahead of me this year is so daunting, and it was all catching up with me. But I'm feeling better about everything now. A nap, a good walk around the block, a jimmy johns sandwich, and a good movie sure turned the rest of the day around.
The plus sides of the freakout were these realizations: (1) Casey's reminder that coming to dead ends in research does NOT mean that I'm not making progress or have wasted my research time in any way, and (2) having such a methodologically conservative history program at SLU after such a liberal social history program at Cornell is not a bad thing. It doesn't mean I'm not equipped for this program or that it's not a good fit for me, just that I'll be a well-rounded historian when I'm through. I'll know the social trends and the culture as WELL as the structural names & dates & facts.
Casey and I went to see at late movie at the Galleria tonight. We'd decided it was high time we saw 500 Days of Summer. It was SUCH a good choice. It made me laugh very loudly, and totally erased any lingering sadness from the day. WHAT a fantastic film. I loved it. We loved the soundtrack, and I have like 90% of the songs on my ipod already. (Didn't realize my musical collection was so indie!) Most of them I got from Dave. I hope he saw that film, I think he would also love it. I am so so so glad we went, cause that was a really good movie and a really fun time. We had lots of good car chatting and singing on the ride home, so I'm bummed it's bedtime now.
The plus sides of the freakout were these realizations: (1) Casey's reminder that coming to dead ends in research does NOT mean that I'm not making progress or have wasted my research time in any way, and (2) having such a methodologically conservative history program at SLU after such a liberal social history program at Cornell is not a bad thing. It doesn't mean I'm not equipped for this program or that it's not a good fit for me, just that I'll be a well-rounded historian when I'm through. I'll know the social trends and the culture as WELL as the structural names & dates & facts.
Casey and I went to see at late movie at the Galleria tonight. We'd decided it was high time we saw 500 Days of Summer. It was SUCH a good choice. It made me laugh very loudly, and totally erased any lingering sadness from the day. WHAT a fantastic film. I loved it. We loved the soundtrack, and I have like 90% of the songs on my ipod already. (Didn't realize my musical collection was so indie!) Most of them I got from Dave. I hope he saw that film, I think he would also love it. I am so so so glad we went, cause that was a really good movie and a really fun time. We had lots of good car chatting and singing on the ride home, so I'm bummed it's bedtime now.