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I think I am feeling better. I just have to force myself to get over the past. This is something I will never forget though.
It really sucks to get so far in life or on anything and then have it crumble in one day. It sucks real bad. It makes you wonder was there a point in ever trying? Is life really worth it? And even what is life worth? What the hell is the it in that freaking question?
It is going to be so hard not having Dom around, but life is a shithole and people including me becomes shits. Then we break free, but get stucks with the stink as if you were marked by a skunk where even tomato baths won't work. It must slowly fade off...VERY SLOWLY fade off. I wonder where my patience has gone. I am more confident now, but at what cost...I feel like everyone in vermont sees me as a lucky and cocky ass bitch and I don't get why. I stopped talking cuz no one wanted listen. I stopped "intruding" because no one likes that and I get stuck alone. And now even more alone. Teresa has become very psycho...VERY PSYCHO.
On a I guess better note (I say I guess because I am addicted to naruto now...i'm waiting for the next naruto shippuden episode to come into existance and I just finished watching the first movie--there's like 3 or 4. Oh and just to show you how bad i am now i watch 140 20minute long episodes in one month and 41 twenty minute long episodes of naruto shippuden in one week and there are more movies and episode coming out too but yeah back to the "better note") the first naruto movie made me laugh and I feel like such a nerd because the only part that made me laugh was a math joke...i don't know if they meant it to be a joke but whatever. "I will pay back what you did...with compound interest" said by naruto as he jumps out of a frozen lake with a ton of shadow clones with him which are just a lot of narutos and yeah...I learned about compounded interest in my calc class and remembered the equation and laughed cuz it made sense and it was in naruto and yeah...Im done dont worry.
It really sucks to get so far in life or on anything and then have it crumble in one day. It sucks real bad. It makes you wonder was there a point in ever trying? Is life really worth it? And even what is life worth? What the hell is the it in that freaking question?
It is going to be so hard not having Dom around, but life is a shithole and people including me becomes shits. Then we break free, but get stucks with the stink as if you were marked by a skunk where even tomato baths won't work. It must slowly fade off...VERY SLOWLY fade off. I wonder where my patience has gone. I am more confident now, but at what cost...I feel like everyone in vermont sees me as a lucky and cocky ass bitch and I don't get why. I stopped talking cuz no one wanted listen. I stopped "intruding" because no one likes that and I get stuck alone. And now even more alone. Teresa has become very psycho...VERY PSYCHO.
On a I guess better note (I say I guess because I am addicted to naruto now...i'm waiting for the next naruto shippuden episode to come into existance and I just finished watching the first movie--there's like 3 or 4. Oh and just to show you how bad i am now i watch 140 20minute long episodes in one month and 41 twenty minute long episodes of naruto shippuden in one week and there are more movies and episode coming out too but yeah back to the "better note") the first naruto movie made me laugh and I feel like such a nerd because the only part that made me laugh was a math joke...i don't know if they meant it to be a joke but whatever. "I will pay back what you did...with compound interest" said by naruto as he jumps out of a frozen lake with a ton of shadow clones with him which are just a lot of narutos and yeah...I learned about compounded interest in my calc class and remembered the equation and laughed cuz it made sense and it was in naruto and yeah...Im done dont worry.