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Well.
I saw him.
On my birthday I just got fed up and told him I needed to pick him up and he let me. It couldnt have been more perfect.
The weird thing is I cant stop thinking that im pregnant. Like im probably not i mean hes been cumming inside me forever i never even get my period anymore. but im on birth control and i was on antibiotics and he came inside me. For some reason i cant stop thinking about it. its not like i want a baby. do i just crave the drama? i could never trap him like that. maybe i would never tell him. i feel like i couldnt. He doesnt want to be with me i wouldnt want to trap him into anything. but then what if i wanted to get rid of it? i dont know if he would let me. frankly i feel like i could be a great mom and we could be so happy together but it would never work because he doesnt love me. what would i do? i already know. i wouldnt tell him either way. if i decided to have the baby i seriously dont think i would tell him. why would i want to involve someone who wants nothing to do with me.
here i am talking about my plans for something that probably isnt true anyways. god has a plan. im not pregnant.
I saw him.
On my birthday I just got fed up and told him I needed to pick him up and he let me. It couldnt have been more perfect.
The weird thing is I cant stop thinking that im pregnant. Like im probably not i mean hes been cumming inside me forever i never even get my period anymore. but im on birth control and i was on antibiotics and he came inside me. For some reason i cant stop thinking about it. its not like i want a baby. do i just crave the drama? i could never trap him like that. maybe i would never tell him. i feel like i couldnt. He doesnt want to be with me i wouldnt want to trap him into anything. but then what if i wanted to get rid of it? i dont know if he would let me. frankly i feel like i could be a great mom and we could be so happy together but it would never work because he doesnt love me. what would i do? i already know. i wouldnt tell him either way. if i decided to have the baby i seriously dont think i would tell him. why would i want to involve someone who wants nothing to do with me.
here i am talking about my plans for something that probably isnt true anyways. god has a plan. im not pregnant.